Generosity

What are you generous with? Time, money? These are the first two things that pop into my mind when generosity comes up. What else is there to be generous with? Yesterday I learned to be generous with patience, love and kindness. Believe it or not these are things that most of us are very stingy about sharing. I meet with a new client that was having a very difficult time with forgiveness, it was during this process I learned about being generous with love. At first I felt empathy for her but as she was explaining her process and her belief of how difficult it is. I felt this expanding feeling of love. In the past I would have kept it to myself as she is a new client and didn't want to scare her. Over time though I have learned that when I get feelings like this they are not mine to keep. I looked her straight in the eyes and told her how loved she ways. It was amazing to feel it pouring out of me into her. She had many questions after that and I am grateful that I didn't hold it back. Thank you for the guidance and experience. My signs from heaven are birds. I have three black birds that like to bomb me every time I go outside. I look at it as a friendly greeting. Unnerving at times, but a nice greeting none the less. There where many other signs yesterday too, I do not recall all of them, but I do know that I was watched over.

Tonight is the night I spend with my sisters and nieces. I look forward to it and release any judgement or expectation I may be holding at this time.

I surrender & trust

Guidance for today is: Pray, Look Deeper, Animals

Summer Solstice

Summer Solstice is one of my favorite times. School gets out and everyone beings to come a live. Summer time is the time when everyone allows themselves to have some fun, whether it is summer vacation or having friends over for a BBQ. The summer solstice starts that for me. I give a fairy offering every year to encourage that I have a good and bountiful garden. I am continually surprised at what shows up in my garden. Summer is endless possibilities and blossoming. I am excited to see what shows up this year.

I surrender & trust

Guidance for me today is: Signs from above, Marriage (unsure), Generosity (unsure)

Things that don't work

Do you ever have one thing that refuses to work or run? Usually for me it is electronics's. I am the one at the electronic drinking fountains and sinks getting someone else to step in front of them so they will turn on. However there is one thing in my life that is a constant, the blasted pumps on lotion, soap, creams etc. If someone else opens them they will work fine. I would really like to know how come they won't work for me. Do I push to hard (don't go there), do I push not hard enough? This has boggled my mind for years. Yes, it is fresh in my mind as the damn shampoo pump wouldn't work this morning, if that wasn't enough neither would the soap or facial wash pumps. I may out shear frustration go back to soap on a rope. All of this has made me think of things through out my day that haven't worked. I was surprised to see there was a long list. It is a darn good think I am an optimist or that list would have set me into a tail spin. I am choosing to voice it and move on. There, I feel better. Thank you!

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: You are a Leader (unsure), Found It (obviously not the right touch for pumps), Reward (a pump that works, I am hoping)

Play

Do you ever get tired of being the responsible one? Last night a friend was telling me how she was not excited abouting going to Lagoon with a bunch of teenagers. She was dreading all the chaos. I was so excited for her, yet she went on complaining about how obnoxious that many teenagers are. It was than I heard the real reason she didn't want to go. She didn't want to be the responsible one. She wants to go have fun, but doesn't feel she can. It wasn't until I said I would love to go and play with them. How fun would it be to spend the day as a teenager? I asked her if she felt someone had to be responsible could she choose one of the teenagers and designate them as the responsible one. She actual became excited about going.

I know that when I pull the Child guidance card I have to step back and play. So, I am playing today. I encourage you to do the same.

I surrender & trust

Today's guidance is: Higher Education, Wise Decision (unsure), Blessings of Abundance (unsure)

Moments of growth

Yesterday I had one of those moments when it felt like an after school special or a movie like "Sandlot" or "Stand by Me". I was a supportive actress in this film as I was dropping my son and his cousin off to go fishing for the day. As they collected their things out of the car I begin hearing the narrator saying, "It was the summer of my 13th year, I spent the summer fishing. My friends and I started out the summer as friends but by the end of the summer we were brothers. I learned more about life that summer............." I shook my head and attempted not to cry as I realized "Oh my hell, he is growing up." It is in those moments I begin questioning if I have taught him all the things he will benefit from as he grows. My only consolation is that he has a dad that will fill in the blanks. After this reflection, I begin reminiscing about my teenage summers and the many adventures I went on. My heart sored with joy and all the possibilities I had than. I looked at what I wanted to be when I grew up and how things have changed. I asked myself, have I achieved those possibilities, am I someone my mother can be proud of, do I contribute to society in a positive way, am I someone I would want as a friend? At the end of all these questions I learned that I am happy with who I am, where I am and where I am going. I am still carrying that feeling of joy. Thanks to my son and his "Summer of Fishing" I grew. This all took place with in a five minute time period.

It is amazing what one can learn in the "moments" of life.

I Surrender & Trust

Today's guidance is: Child (unsure), Steady Progress (unsure), Love (unsure)

Speaking Truth

What does that mean? Does this mean that you tell whole truth's all the time, or does this mean you use your filter? I am going to go with half truths with the filter. When I receive this guidance I know that I will be given the opportunity to speak what I believe is my truth. As I have stated before all truths are true. My truth comes from the confidence of knowing, and to build that confidence I will be tested on it by speaking my truth. Have you ever had a conversation that about something you feel strongly about, but held back on saying something that you know is true? That is not speaking your truth, speaking your truth would be you speaking up.

I had many opportunities this weekend to do this. At times I didn't speak my truth as it didn't feel like the appropriate time to do so and I feel okay with not doing so. I challenge you to see how often you do this today.

I had a very enlightening conversation with my friend Kimberly, I would share more, but it has left me, all I have now is the remnants of feeling up lifted. I am grateful for all that I have learned and received this weekend. I surrender & trust (knowing that all is working out perfectly)

Guidance for today is : Triumphant (unsure), Healthy eating(unsure), PAUSE (unsure, this excites me)

Wise Decision

Every time I get this guidance I am unsure of what that means. Is a Wise Decision that I pulled the card or is there other decisions that I will make that will be the wise one. Cuz, truly if you think about all the decisions you make in a day, how will I know which one was the wise one. I have chosen the phone call with my friend Jaymi as my wise decision. She helped me move through the rest of the crap I had. She reminded me of the definition of Trust, "What if I Just Knew that everything is working out perfectly." I feel so much better. Yes, I truly was excited about being in PAUSE. I could feel things building up and knew the only way for it to move was in PAUSE. There is a little residual and I anticipate that it will be a few days before it is complete gone. Hmm know that I think about it, is my Wise Decision to listen to "TRUST". I say that every day I "Trust" but apparently I wasn't actually following through. I recognize that know. I will do better today.

I Surrender & Trust ( believe that all is working out perfectly)

Today's guidance: Healing, Speak my TRUTH, Heaven is watching (unsure)

Peaceful

How do you find peacefulness in chaos? This is what I was unsure about yesterday. Everyone around me seems to be in some sort of Chaos. So, when they are feeling anxious, nervous and stressed I feel it. My question is "Am I suppose to be the peacefulness or do I get to be in it?" Okay, I answered my question. If I am in peacefulness than those around me will benefit. Well, I hope in my confusion those in chaos benefited from my peacefulness. My emotions are still running a muck. I will be glad when they get into check. No I am not hormonal. With my emotions running a muck it has been difficult being Brave. Especially when my emotions would rather I sit in the corner and cry. I guess it is being brave if I chose to sit in the corner and cry. Hmmm I will have to think about that. Oh my, I am being pulled to learn something. Off I go.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: Play music (unsure), Wise Decision (unsure), PAUSE (woo who)

Appointment

My guidance yesterday was to Pray. I was unsure of what I was praying about but I did so anyway. I figured it had to do with being in Retreat. For me this is a learning time. When I am guided to take a retreat it means that I am being bombarded by to many thoughts, idea's, emotions and outside influences that I am becoming to overwhelmed and not seeing the Vision (Which was another reminder yesterday). I enjoy sitting in prayer and meditation as it is the time my thoughts and emotions are quiet and as one. Yes, it has taken time to build that muscle, which is interesting as that was part of my guidance to continue building my talents(muscle), be patient with myself and to do a healing cleans as my vibration is moving. Be Brave is to help me move forward and embrace the changes that are happening. I am definitely moving out of my comfort zone. All in all the appointment went well. I am grateful for the support.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: Mother, Peaceful (unsure), Be Brave (still growing, unsure), & Emotions (unsure)

Retreat

For your information Retreat is not like Pause. Pause is what happens when you would like for things to happen when you want them to and you push for them. Retreat is what happens when you have to remove yourself from everything so you can come back to it with fresh idea's. I am saying this as that is where I am at. I can not talk long as I have an appointment with my angels in 5 minutes so I hurrying to write this. My appointment with them is to help me in my retreat.

I Surrender & Trust

Today's Guidance: Be Brave, Pray (unsure, appointment), Stress Management, & Vision.

Optimism

Friday was an enjoyable day with my daughter. There were several times through out the weekend I had to pull myself aside and get my emotions in check. I am glad for the FYI my angels gave me. Optimism is one of those emotions that I ran the gambit on. One minute I was excited and saw the possibilities the next I was seeing the complete opposite. It didn't only happened on one thing like performing at Thanksgiving Point, it was on everything. From spending time with my daughter to the exercise regiment I have myself on. My poor husband meet my grouchy side more than once. It has been difficult at times to be aware of every emotion. I attempted to be with them as they appeared, however when you are having three different emotions at a time it is rather difficult to decide which one to be with. I am glad the weekend is over with. Everything did turn out well. I am grateful that so many people are patient with me and my emotions.

I Surrender and Trust

Guidance for Today: Safe Travel, Retreat, & Peaceful (Unsure)

Arrogance vs Confidence

Arrogance is a word that has been coming up a lot in various conversations. I have been working with a couple of clients on distinquishing the difference. However this morning as I was driving home from a viewing, I had this epiphany. Arrongance is the "Belief" that you know it all. Confidence is "KNOWing" that you do. Does that make sense? Here is an example: "You can not beat me at a game of basketball, I am so good." Arrogance. Can you here it? "Sure, love to play a basketball game with you, are you sure you want to play against me, cuz I am pretty good." Confidence. Do you hear the difference? I may not be conveying as well as I would like. Hope you get the idea though. That is what my learning experience was yesterday and what I didn't compromise. This is something I have been struggling with the "attitude" I receive from my daughter, I am learning that she is building her Confidence and at times it may come across as Arrogance. Tomorrow is her birthday so she and I will be head off for the rest of today playing.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for the weekend is: Optimism (unsure), Emotions(unsure), Retreat

Learn or not learn

It is up to you. Do you choose to learn from your experiences or do you chose to have them over and over? For example if you drive home the same way everyday you experience the same thing so much so it becomes a habit and you can comfortably go into "automatic pilot" and arrive home without any thought to how you got there. Most of us continue life this way as it is what we know and what makes us feel safe. If you take one wrong turn you become disoriented, unsure and a little scared. By taking that wrong turn you may discover that there is actually a better view on that road than. Yes, I am in a metaphorical mood today, however do you see how we tend to put ourselves into the same box, mold or what ever you want to call it. Yet, we will complain about others making us "Stay in the box". What I have learned is that it doesn't matter how you got into the box, it is whether or not you chose to learn if that is the one you want to be in.

I am building my box into a fort. You know like the ones you use to build when you where little, it had many rooms, if you wanted to add something you went and got another box, blanket, chair or whatever fit for what you desired. I have added a sun room to mine the last three days as being in Pause has required me to sit in it. I discovered I didn't have enough sun light in mine. Yes, I learned many things, none of which I can recall at the moment, but Trust that the things I learned will show up when it is beneficial.

I will head off now as my daughter is ready for school. I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for Today is: Look Deeper (unsure), Be Brave, Learning Experience, Don't Compromise (unsure)

Guess what

I am in Pause. YEAH ME. My morning has been rather eventful, I have finished planting my shrubs, exercised, had breakfast, conversed with three clients and spent time with my son. It was while Iwas asking guidance for today that two cards jumped out: Peaceful (unsure of) & Practice Makes Perfect. I continued asking for guidance Mother, commiment and Pause showed up. I am pushing for something, I will sit in Pause while I figure this out. If you don't hear from me for a couple of days it is because I am still in Pause. I look forward to the growth. Have a great day.

I Surrender & Trust

Healing

I felt so comforted and loved yesterday. My guides made their presences known every where. I had a wonderful conversation with my friend Kimberly, she helped my see that I was putting more energy than neccessary. So, I am finished with that. I have spent the day working in my yard. I love playing in the dirt. I do have several blisters for my hard work. I am excited about them. I had a very enjoyable lunch with my son. I look forward to the weekend.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for the weekend: Forgiveness, Miracle, Steady Progress

Hurt

Yesterday I had a friend inform me that another friend of ours has difficulty with what I do, that she fears I am practicing devil worshiping, or occult practices. She really likes me and is worried about my welfare. Honestly at first I was offended, than I became angry, now I am hurt. My guidance yesterday told me I am a leader, I am sure this is referring to this conversation. At the moment though I am not feeling like one. I am feeling attacked. I am tired of this constant defending of who I am. For the record I don't practice any occult or devil worshiping. I haven't sold my soul to anyone. I may for a killer pair of shoes or to become the chosen recipient of a large stock share in Hershey's Chocolates (JK). As it stands neither of these have shown up for me to offer my soul, so it is still intact. My friend Jaymi would be asking me right now "as the director of your movie what part does this play?" I am going to go with drama & conflict. Every movie has to have some sort of drama and conflict for the Heroin to raise above. Yes, I am not actually rising above it right now, I am doing a good deal of complaining and that is okay I am acknowledging the weakness and moving through it. My guidance yesterday also said Don't Compromise. Am I compromising who am I by throwing this little tantrum, I don't think so, because once I am done, I will still be me. Lastly, my guidance said Wise Decision, this comes from not calling that friend and chewing her out.

Okay, I have vented and feel better. I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today: Emotions (no really), Love (now I am crying) & Healing (yeah)

Who knew?

Words have become a hobby for me. There is a game I like to play called "Word Power". Some other day I will explain how this is played. I would like to talk about a word today that I have come to recognize as the most versatile word. You can use it as an explanation, as a description, an act, slang, and a swear word. If this was a proper English paper I would have said you can use it as a noun, verb, adverb, and an adjective. You will learn shortly how this will not be a proper English paper.

Have you figured the word out? I will give you a hint. It starts with F and rhymes with duck. All my life I have been told what a horrible word this is. I am not seeing it as this any more. Maybe it's because as educated as my husband is this word is his favorite and he will find a way to fit it into any conversation. I on the other hand save this word for special occasions or for when I am extremely frustrated. Over the weekend, I really looked at this word and used it in various sentences (not out loud, though I was tempted many times). That is when I discovered how versatile it is. I can now see the reason my husband likes it. I am now on a mission to find other versatile words.

As for my Signs from heaven, I was unsure and I still am but trust that they were there. I received a 100% on my Harmonics's test this would be my Triumphant and as for Generosity I will go with that my 13 year old is still walking.

I am grateful for all I am and have. I Surrender & Trust

Today's guidance is You are a leader, Wise decision, Don't Compromise

FIx & Repair

When is enough, enough? When do you replace something that is costing you more than you owe? Over the past month and a half my car has been in the shop four times. It is still requiring more work. Yet, so far we have paid out more to get it fix than we have left to pay on it. I am left to wonder how all this repair is a reflection of my life. I was in a state of doubt, hurt and confusion four years ago. I had finished school, started a new job, making good money & yet I still felt insecure. A friend introduced me to the "Secret" I loved it, it was what had been asking for to better my life. I learned how to manifest many things from it. One of them being my current car. I had originally desired a black one, however a black one never showed up. When I zeroed in on the green one boom I got it. I now had more proof how the "Secret" worked. Interesting enough four months after purchasing this car, the "check engine" light kept coming on. six months later I went back to school to get further training. Once I completed this training my life felt even more at odds. The job I worked at was not fitting with any of my training. The owners were friendly, but couldn't stay focused on what they wanted to accomplish. I felt as if they didn't want me there. 10 months after getting this car I was laid off. 11 months later it required a $1200 repair (check engine light). Looking back over all the repairs, I am beginning to wonder if this was the car I really desired. I was pushing so hard for a car and I couldn't wait for the desired one to come along. So, when I changed what I really desired for something that I wanted, look at all the work and trouble I have gone through, because I didn't wait. Does this mean the "Secret" doesn't work? Absolutely not. I got what I asked for, however I didn't wait for what I really desired. I changed my desire to a want midstream, I didn't truly listen nor did I realize the consequences for being impatient. I know you are saying it is only a car. I recognize that, but my question still remains, when is enough, enough. I am tired of battling with the car, I am tired of spending more of my "value" on constant repairs. I am putting my foot down and saying, enough. I am not putting forth any more worry or energy into this issue, I will wait for what it is I truly desire and I am changing my view.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today: Signs from above (unsure), Triumphant, Generosity