New Beginings

With it being the eve of New Years Eve I cannot help but begin reflecting on this past year. I took a few minutes to read past blog posts and was amazed at the growth and awareness's I have had. I will admit to being scared and excited about the new year and all its possibilities. I have begun thinking of what I would like to anticipate for my next year. My dream for this year is "Through my surrender & trust, I will gain Faith, Hope & Unity." I believe I have achieved it and in the most unusual and profound ways. I attempt to not expect anything for the new year as I believe when you expect something you limit yourself and those around you; it also limits on how it anything will appear. By expecting I also set myself up for disappointment. I reiterate that I am anticipating new & wonderful things for this upcoming year. Thus a New Beginning. When you watch "Christmas Carol", you learn about how Scrooge starts anew Christmas morning; after all his awakenings and awareness's. What I would like to know is how many of us take this into consideration every Christmas; do we wait for the New Year to start anew or are we still waiting for the "three spirits" to visit us to show us how we aught to be living so we too can have a New Beginning?

Spirit of Christmas

With it being Christmas and everyone in "the spirit", I can not help wonder what causes this. Most everyone I talk to complain about how commercialized it has become, having to buy so and so a gift and how they plan to have back-up gifts in case someone they hadn't planned on giving a gift to gives them one. When I ask the reason for this they all say one of two things "It is expected" or "Karma, if I don't give it will come back and get me". Both of these answers surprises me, as neither of them speak of what Christmas is about. I to for years bought into the having to give everyone a gift and it caused me stress and anxiety. When I didn't get what I wanted I was extremely disappointed. It was five years ago that I stopped. I don't give a gift unless I am inspired to do so, I receive each gift with appreciation as someone took the time to think of me. Even though most have begun to believe I don't practice Christmas. (I do, only not in the way that most do). The fact that they still give me a gift even though I may not practice it the way they do lets me know that they truly do care. So I ask you what is the "spirit " of Christmas & how do you access it? I hear people say they watch Christmas specials or listen to the Christmas music; others say it is through the children. For me this year it was when I began exercising; " I have been given much & I would like to share". I don't have to share, nor am I feeling it is expected. I am doing it because I desire to. This is the spirit that will carry me through until next year. If the giving comes from the heart with no strings, expectations or justifications than it is a true gift. The next step is the receiving of this gift and that is completely up to you. I hope you all had a very merry Christmas.

Out of Sorts

I was thinking about writing about "commitment" some more today and than some one asked if I would write about "karma" there seems to be confusion on how this actually works. It is my turn to write today and I can not seem to get my brain to write about anything. OK, it doesn't want to do much of anything and it isn't only today I had this issue yesterday also. My husband threatened to send me to bed early last night as I was no longer making any sense. What causes these bouts of scattered thinking? I suppose it depends on who you talk to; one person will say "you are dehydrated", another would say "not enough sleep", another "stress". I would love to say it was one of these, how ever I can not I will admit the truth. My brain is having a melt down. I am sure none of you have ever had one of these. With that said wait until Thursday for me to write about "commitment or karma" until than.

I surrender & trust

Distractions

Due to the plethora of distractions I create for myself I haven't written. I could say "It must mean I wasn't meant to write." that would not be the truth. I chose not to. So, I am writing today to thank you all for being patient with me as I begin creating the new habit of writing on this blog. I have asked for reminders to help me to follow through, however the reminders I receive happen at times that are not at all helpful, like while I am driving or in the middle of a store. I am working on rewiring the reminders also. I am sure none of you have experienced this kind of rewiring.

As for distractions, I do appreciate them as they help me either stay strong on what is important or remind me on how easily I can be lead astray. Distractions come in all shapes and sizes. From a thought to a traffic accident. For me one of my distractions was the printer jamming repeatedly. I do realize the more frustrated I became the more the printer jammed. I had to walk away. My husband unjammed it this morning. Guess what this email can even be considered a distraction, especially if you are using it to prevent yourself from doing a unlikeable task.

I will not be a contributor to you delinquency. So, move forward.

I surrender & trust