Generosity, Vision, & Activist

Food for thought; Is a habit formed first and than a routine, or do you create a routine that turns into a habit? I think it is the later. However, somethings seem to be a habit before you have ever create a routine such as biting your nails.

I have known for awhile that I am uncomfortable being in large groups, I will find a spot on the outer rim and mingle from this spot. Yesterday, I got caught in the middle. I had a small panic attack. Does this mean my panic attack was from my routine being broken or from a habit being disrupted?
Later on I went to dinner with friends and a similar thing happened, I arrived late and so, I was unable to choose my place at the table. Which was smack dab in the middle of the restaurant. Needless to say I had a hard time eating. No, I don't suffer from social anxiety, being an empath I feel more vulnerable being in the center of any room. My habit of being off to the side was created to help me feel safe. What habits or routines do you create to help you feel safe?

As for my angels, they were busy: My daughter pointed out that there was an office space available and that once I had it people will come in just to find out what I do (Vision). I am unsure what I was an Activist for (hence the doubt) and as for the Generosity, feels weird discussing it. Because if I talk about it will it be genuine? I will leave it at that.

I surrender and trust!

Today's guidance is: Heaven is watching over me, Freedom (doubting this), Practice makes perfect. All guardian angels. Thank you.