Don't Compromise

As you know words fascinate me. Take the word compromise, the end of that word is "Promise", ever time I see this word or hear it I am remind to keep the Promises I made to myself. How did this show up yesterday? I was asked to do something that wasn't in alignment with who I am. How did I know, because when I was asked I got this sicking feeling in my stomach and the minute I thought about answering "yes", I felt sicker. It wasn't anything big and I won't go into details, but I was reminded that it always starts small and before you know it you are breaking "promises" not only to yourself but those around you. Thank you angels for reminding me. As for being as a child, I played, and my vision is now getting bigger. Which tells me to pull back before I end up with the Pause button again ( and we know how much I love that one). I will be honest I pulled that card out yesterday too (it came out with the Don't Compromise), but put it back as I wasn't feeling it. Over the weekend I ask you to think of ways you can keep your Promise.

I Surrender & Trust.

Guidance for today: Yeah new ones; Stress Mangement, Healthy Eating and Emotions.

Sweet

Thank you to all my friends that reminded me of all I am passionate about. It is always fun to hear how others view you. I am very close in finishing my final exam. I was stuck on a question regarding visionary reflection, I had to give an account of a personal experience. I had one last night so, now I only have two more questions, booya. I had a great day yesterday, the miracle that came through was very beneficial, and I am truly thankful for it. Because of that miracle I did find peace. As for my animals, I listened to my ancient kitty, she followed my around all day and insisted on sitting me every time I sat down. The real battle was over who got the heater, of course she won as her bones need it more than me. She is a calming and grounding influence for me, I think she is the one that helped my have my "visionary reflection" experience. I look forward to today's adventure. I Surrender & Trust!

Guidance for today is: Vision (humm, how did I get that one), Child, Don't compromise (doubting)

Numbers to watch for: 554 and 121

Yep, the day got away

Yesterday was one of those days that when you blinked it was over with and you were still trying to recall what it was you did.

My confidence is growing in who I am, I was put in a situation yesterday that made me question that and I am happy to say I didn't compromise so that someone else would feel superior. I also explained to an individual what I do with passion and excitement. It felt great.

My diet is going well. I have been drinking this charcoal stuff and I have discovered it tastes much better in apple juice.

I surrender and trust.

Guidance for today is: Miracle, Peaceful (doubting this), Animals (wondering about this)

Passion

Can I just say that January isn't one of my most favorite months. Not only is it cold and snowy, it reminds me of all the things I didn't achieve last year and points out all the things I am looking to achieve this year as not possible. There are days I would like to not get out of bed. I am beginning to think that I took on more than I can chewy, "Working with Angels" can kick your butt even when you aren't looking. I have come to the conclusion they have a sense of humor. For this I am very grateful.

The last four days I have had people tell me to give up. It has been hurtful, disheartening and makes me want to. I won't though, because I know this is where I am suppose to be and all this is a test to see how committed I am to achieving. I also know that this will continue as it helps me re-connect to my reasons for doing so. Last week I prayed harder than I have in a long time, I also saw my confidence waver at a new networking group (believing that I wouldn't be accepted), I made Peace with myself in the end.

What showed up is that I attempt to promote something I use rather than who I am. I don't have the "Passion" in it. Where my passion truly lies is teaching individuals "LifeSkills" that will help them improve their current reality, teach them how to connect with their guardian angels & guides so they don't feel alone and teach them love themselves. I am passionate about who I am and the gifts God gave me. The question is, how do I promote that?

I Surrender & Trust.

Guidance for today/tomorrow: Confidence, *Healthy Eating (doubting this), Don't Compromise

*I find this rather funny as I started a detox regiment today and I am not to thrilled about it.

Maybe, maybe not continued

Mental note, don't touch the back button. Apparently, I wanted to see something else and my computer sent me there. I have lost my train of thought now, here is my new one.

I believe that I am on the right path, however, there are certain days I have doubt, question and/or want to give up. I am committed to seeing this through. Now I have a headache. I will shift from my thoughts and move back to what's important. I surrender and trust (for me trust means Totally, Relying, Utterly, on Spiritual, Timing.) It isn't up to me.

My guidance today is: Peaceful, Confidence (doubting, this I have already seen), and Pray.

Maybe, maybe not

The fact that it is 11:55 and I am asking this, proves that I am on the right thought. The word "try" came out of my mouth today, and I caught myself. I switched it to, I will make inquiries. I feel better "Emotionally" today and I thank all of you who sent me hugs, they helped.

I was reminded yesterday that this path is not for the weak hearted or task drive. Trust and surrender can not be achieved with a list of "tasks", I keep "pushing" for that "to do" list and the angels in their wisdom give me the "Pause" button and clear my schedule so I am forced to do so.

Day late or day ahead

I have come to the realization that my guidance is a day ahead. So, like the ones I received yesterday are for today, and the ones I pull for today are for tomorrow. They may even over lap.

I will also admit I am an emotional wreck today. So please send me a hug, cuz I could really use one. I received a sign from heaven, & I am grateful for the confirmation. I know I can lead a horse to water, but I can not make him drink until he is ready. I will probably keep trying though.

I must be on to something there as my ears are ringing and my thoughts are getting scrambled.

Yesterday was a comfortable day. I played with my son, we sang American Revolution for an hour and a half. He kicked my butt. I had coffee with my husband in the late afternoon, and we all went out to dinner. I am grateful to my husband and all he does for me. He certainly is very patient and understanding. Oh, we watched a couple of Supernatural episodes too. My friend Jenny let us borrow the first season. I really can relate to those guys. It hasn't been easy being different. Maybe that is why I am so emotional today, because it hit a nerve.

My search for "the knowledge" continues. I surrender & trust.

Guidance for today & tomorrow is: You will laugh Emotions (surprise), Pause (really again), Believe (doubting)

Knowledge is power?

My angels are working over time. It took me 10 minutes to get into this. Usually this means to redirect my thoughts, hopeful I have done so and can finish this without further ado.

I say they are working overtime as the have been sending me awareness's for two day's now. The last ones however where at 3:30 am and 4:14 am this morning. One of which I am to share with you now.

As I stated in the title Knowledge is Power. I am from the era of School House Rock, any of you who are too are sing the song along with me. That is not my point though.
It is actually the other way round "Power is in the Knowledge." If you noticed I added a word. I was told it is in how we search, obtain and use "the Knowledge" that one will gain Power, and not the kind of Power that makes you famous, rich, CEO of a 500 company or President, but the kind that hums through your veins and emanates from your pores in an awe inspiring way that individuals are drawn to you, because being in your presences makes them feel safe.

It isn't "the knowledge" that gains you the power it is "the knowledge" you receive from the choices you make on how to use that "knowledge". It reminds me of "The Ring" from "Lord of the Rings." Many killed for it, many where driven mad, a few who saw it deemed themselves unworthy of it. There was a small few who knew their own flaws will enough that, even though their intentions were noble in the end it would corrupt them. Only one could carry it this one had no wish to control it.

I hope this makes sence to you. I am still learning and seeking "the knowlegde" I am also learning which one I am. Do you know which one you are? How did your two hours of darkness go?

I surrender and trust.

My guidance for today is: Sweetness, Signs from above (wondering), & Look Deeper

Computer trouble

I am going to quickly write as my computer keeps kicking me off. I am back, I have now lost my train of thought as I am in hurray to write something. Okay, here it is. I am going to challenge you to a (not a duel) so relax, sometime between now and Tuesday, sit in the dark for two hours. Don't move, don't talk to anyone, don't ask for assistance from anyone. Set a timer, begin writing down what you hear, what you feel, what you see (or think you see), and thoughts you have. I would like to hear how it goes. And I'm gone.

Quickly,I am back; I Surrender and Trust.

Guidance today is: Mother (doubting), Wise Decision, & Triumphant.

Have a great weekend.

Hello God, it's me again

Have you ever had a day that as your are climbing into bed you know you did alot of things, learned alot and still felt that you weren't enough nor could you remember what it was you did? I had that last night.

As I am trying to review my day, I recalled I had a great breakthrough but couldn't recall how it came about. I had this unsettling, nervous feeling, so I tried reading "Brida" once again it hit a cord, it told me what I really benefited from hearing. Can I recall it today? a few parts, the one that I remember the most is "We can have amazing things happen to us that confirm to us that we are on the right path and with in no time we will brush that experience off as our imaginations." This happens to me alot!! The other thing is to FORGIVE myself. (Did I receive that guidance this week also?) I am still caring a sad feeling, I would like to release this to you God and move forward. I am totally grateful for your continual patients and guidance.

I surrender and Trust
Me

Today's Guidance: Speak my truth (doubting), Faith, You are a Leader

Doubt, Fear, Breathe & Repeat

Good Lord, Did the angels kick my butt yesterday.
Do you realize once you open the door, even if it is a crack to doubt it will wiggle its skinny tush right in and make itself at home. Next thing you know it is giving out orders and creating all sorts of havoc. To bad there isn't a Musinex for that.

Here's how it took over, I stated that one of my dreams for the year is to "Treasure Gods gifts." Since that statement, I have been feeling disconnected to them, which in turn has brought "Doubt" a knocking at my door. I opened it a crack and BAM, next thing I know I have friends that won't answer my desperate call, business associate stating that they "doubt" what I do and clients informing me that they are "doubting" their process. Of course this sends me into an "Oh my, what have I done", panic mode. Ta da "FEAR" has now arrived, with thoughts like "I am an idiot, you should go back to bed, quit, it will be so much easier."

Side note: Remember, I asked about tires a couple of days ago? Lets say that I am my car, what would cause me to get a flat tire?

What guidance did I get yesterday, the day before and twice last week? PAUSE and SLEEP. Here is how the angels helped me get out of my doubt follow me here; I was headed to JAWIB meeting and I noticed the gas tank was on E, I thought "I ought to stop for gas, don't have time will get it later." After that meeting I stopped at my mom's passed two gas stations, didn't stop. Finished visiting with my mom and headed to another meeting. Really ought to stop for gas." Thought the car turning in front of me was turning before the light, went around them, only to discover they were in the turn lane. I had to go through the light, which had me turning into a gas station to turn around. Did I Stop? (Let me ask, Do you see the connection yet?) Yes, but only long enough for the other cars to pass so I could get out. While I am waiting for these cars it dawns on me; where are you? why are you not stopping? how much further do you think you can go before you are out of gas?" Automatic response; don't have time got to go. Pulled out and went to that meeting. All the way to the meeting berating myself, it was than it hit me (the angels step in)
#@%#, I am the car, I keep pushing myself, not taking the time to "refuel" myself, by not taking the time to do so, I am opening myself up to more ill effects. When we are tired or not operating at our best we tend to think irrational thoughts, opening us up to negative fuel. If we have to fuel ourselves with something it might as well be empty(Air), until we can stop and get the good stuff.
Guess what I stopped. Did I get a half tank (take 2 minutes to rejuvenate) or did I fill it up?

My angels weren't done; I kept a hold of my phone, while I was waiting for my daughter to come out from dance, when she came out I felt inspired to look at my messages. Imagine how surprised I was to see I had two voice messages. I checked the volume it was on vibrate. I listened to the messages (my two friends returning my desperate call). I deleted them, shut my phone and began backing out. My phone vibrates, I pull out and wait for the light, while at the light I see there is another voice message. When I get home, I listen to my messages, my voice mail says "You have no saved messages, press 1 to return to the main menu". To shorten this story, there is still an envelope on my phone saying I have a voice mail, however when I try to retrieve it, it doesn't exist. I believe this is my "Sign from Heaven".

The lesson here is take time for you, if you start feeling Doubt or Fear STOP, Breathe and look for the truth than begin again. It will take a few times to create this new habit. BE PATIENT!!!! Be Consistent, and committed to seeing it through.

I SURRENDER & TRUST

Today's guidance is: Vision, Play music, & Child (still doubting & my lesson continues)

Higher Education

Right off the bat, I want you to know that as soon as I figure out how to work the web cam on my computer, I will than be able to upload or download my vision board. Until then, Trust that I have it completed.

I am really enjoying "Brida" I learned last night there are four types of rings. We can choose which one we are to wear in this lifetime. However, you may not realize which one you have chosen until you are ready to depart this world. I have narrowed it down to two. When I know for sure I will let you know. The other thing I learned about was Wisdom, the definition in this book really caught my attention. I feel I would like to sit and digest it for a bit before I expand further on it. I feel all this falls under the Higher Education card I drew. I learned so much yesterday that I cann't recall all of it nor how it pertains to where I am going. I do know that when I wish to use it, it will be there.

I am so grateful for the experiences I had yesterday, they reminded me to take the time and listen to what matters (what was a part of my goal for the year?) Thank you angels for assisting me in recognizing this. Doubt has crept in more than once the last few days. I am getting better at letting go of it and replacing it with possibilities. I honestly didn't see the Miracle that occurred. Do I doubt that it occurred; no. It means that it wasn't a miracle I was to share.

One thing about New Year Dreams, as you are on the path to achieving them, you do tend to go through an array of emotional highs and lows. I wonder if this is what it is like to Manic? Do any of you know? Because, I seriously go through really highs and than at times I would like to sit down and cry. Do any of you experience this or is this just me?

I surrender!!!

Today's guidance: Sleep, Forgiveness (unsure), Signs from above (unsure)

Ask and you shall receive

Last week I put a question out there to help m define Love and Faith. Well the angels stepped right up. I began reading a book yesterday called "Brida" and the first chapter is all about FAITH and the second chapter is all about Love. Not what I had expected to find in a book with that title. I really like the definitions in there. I recommend you read it.

Yes, I know I didn't write yesterday and it did haunt me. I kept making the excuse I am spending time with my family not the computer today. So, I would like to ask permission to write on weekends as I am inspired to? I did however get to start my book, finish my Vision board and hang out with my family. Yes, I also said I would post a picture of my vision board. I shall do that as soon as I figure out how to attach it. Boy it is only the first week and I feel as if I have broken my word several times. That isn't like me. I will do better in the future.

Oh, the other thing is "Tires" what do tires mean? anyone? I have figured it out and so has one of my friends who graciously shared it with me and therefor "Tires" showed up more than once afterwards. Thank you. You don't play fair, I ended up with a whole trailer full in front of me.

I surrender.

Today's Guidance is: Miracle ( I believe, whoa), Higher Education (doubting) and PAUSE (doubting, surprise). I am rebelling against this one again, I paused last week for two days. I can not Pause again. I repeat, I SURRENDER.

Generosity, Vision, & Activist

Food for thought; Is a habit formed first and than a routine, or do you create a routine that turns into a habit? I think it is the later. However, somethings seem to be a habit before you have ever create a routine such as biting your nails.

I have known for awhile that I am uncomfortable being in large groups, I will find a spot on the outer rim and mingle from this spot. Yesterday, I got caught in the middle. I had a small panic attack. Does this mean my panic attack was from my routine being broken or from a habit being disrupted?
Later on I went to dinner with friends and a similar thing happened, I arrived late and so, I was unable to choose my place at the table. Which was smack dab in the middle of the restaurant. Needless to say I had a hard time eating. No, I don't suffer from social anxiety, being an empath I feel more vulnerable being in the center of any room. My habit of being off to the side was created to help me feel safe. What habits or routines do you create to help you feel safe?

As for my angels, they were busy: My daughter pointed out that there was an office space available and that once I had it people will come in just to find out what I do (Vision). I am unsure what I was an Activist for (hence the doubt) and as for the Generosity, feels weird discussing it. Because if I talk about it will it be genuine? I will leave it at that.

I surrender and trust!

Today's guidance is: Heaven is watching over me, Freedom (doubting this), Practice makes perfect. All guardian angels. Thank you.

WWTA day 5

Hurray, I got most of my vision board done. I will post a picture of it tomorrow. I would like to add a few touches. I am so grateful for the awareness that I received yesterday.One of my friends stopped by and gave me a awake up kick in the butt. Instead of belittling and chastising myself for not working on my vision board the day before, I nurtured myself and find out the reason why. FEAR of what I may create this year to look like. That is when my friend stopped by and reminded me that I have the option to change it. Thank you friend. I took most of the afternoon doing it. I must admit it looks awesome. I loved the interactions I had yesterday and all of the things I became aware of. One of them is defining Faith and Love, which reappeared as a reminder and a mirror during a session with a client. What is your definition of Faith and Love? I looked up both in Websters dictionary, it doesn't truly fit mine, so I am asking you; maybe that will help me. Thank you for your help. I surrender.


Today's guidance: Activist (doubting that I could be one), Generosity, and Vision. Note time: 2:12 pm

WTA Day 4

Here is the deal. Every time I pull the Pause card I tend to get irritated. The Pause card means to stop and smell the roses. Just like you, I instantly think "I don't have time." The interesting thing with this card is when I pull it, I am forced to stop. Like yesterday, my day was scheduled out and I wasn't sure (hence the doubt) how I was going to Pause. Walla, my day was cleared! I was forced to Pause. Which in turn had my tap into my guidance system (Kimberly & Jaymi) and what I got was focus on my Vision for the year. Now, I have two days (yesterday and today) to create my Vision Board. I do have to mention that in my Pause, I studied for my final exam, finished a library book and played Karaoke with my kids. All in all not a bad day. Than how, come as of today I haven't put my board together? Distractions!!! Dag nab it. The fact that my clock now reads 11:41 lets me know that the angels are with my thoughts. Fine, I will finish this journal and get to work on it. I surrender.


Today's guidance: Nature (doubt this as it is cold outside), Sign from above (guardian angel), Love (which I am currently doubting.)

Healing with the Angels day 3

Okay honestly I have fallen victim to the New Dream doubt or irrational thoughts. I have been talking myself into writing about yesterday's experience all morning. I couldn't remember what guidance the angels were giving me yesterday. I am reflecting on how their guidance showed up. This is what I remember; having an awesome session with a client, and connecting with two new clients, having lunch with a wonderful networking group, speaking with an agent about office space, discarding emotional trash (thank you Kimberly), fighting with my ego, and having my butt whooped at dance class. Oh and Jenny giving me a bag of cake balls (which totally helps me maintain my VS model look) Thank you Jenny.

Today's guidance is: PAUSE (guardian angel, and I am doubting if I should do this), Play Music (St.Cecilia, doubting if music will help) and Confidence (St.Michael, the Archangel, I believe I do). I surrender.

Healing with the Angels day 2

Yesterday was a wonderful day, I spoke with my two bestest friends that reminded me of the things I am grateful for. I had a great laugh with my son, I enjoyed listening to my daughter's ramblings and helped my husband relax.

As for the guidance my angels gave me I was amazed at how wonderful I felt all day, having the knowledge that all was right in my world and I was exactly where I was meant to be. I surrendered many concerns to them and was reward. I feel the hardest part of surrender is truly letting go of the stirring wheel. My friend Kimberly and I discussed this. It has taken me a full year to be able to do that. My Sweetness assisted me in making a few new friends also. As for the miracle, I know you are wanting to hear that I walked on water or I cut myself and the wound healed instantly. Will I did neither. Except for that puddle out front of the post office, I guess you could count that as walking on water. My miracle was, I spoke with a good friend that I haven't been able to connect with for awhile, and I made two dinners with out burning either one. (Trust me this is a huge one ask my family). Lastly, I took the step and called on office space.

I am ready for today's guidance. PRAY (guardian angel), LOOK DEEPER (guardian angel), REWARD (guardian angel). All upside right. I surrender.

Invitation to join

Oh My Goodness,

The new year is already awesome. I have to let you know that my son brought a word to my attention which made me change my view on how I approached the New Year. He was telling me a joke, which than lead to this question; "Doesn't "re" mean again, because if it does how can anyone be "retarded"?" This question than had me thinking about other words that "re" is added to, and the first word was resolution. No wonder we never achieve our new years "resolutions". That word in itself causes us to do the same thing over again. Holy Crap batman, if we are doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results, wouldn't that classify us as going insane?

This is the reason I stated on facebook last week that I am creating New Dreams for this New Year. My dream is through my Surrender and Trust I gain Faith, Peace and Unity; Savor every moment with family, friends and clients; Treasure Gods gifts, receive the bounty that comes from them with gratitude, grace and ease; Integrate Love and Laughter in everything I say and do; lastly, look like a Victoria Secret model in a bikini. It doesn't seem like much, however I know what kind of work I will have to do to accomplish this.

I invite you to join me on this years journey of achieving my dream. I will document everyday for the next 365 days on how the angels are working with me to succeed. I will pull three cards daily from my Angel or fairy decks, state what their guidance is for the day and report how their guidance showed up from the previous day. I am very excited to do this. Are you ready? I am. Here we go. The cards I pulled today are BELIEVE (St. Hildegard of Bingen), SWEETNESS (guardian angel) & MIRACLE (Christ); all of them up right.
WOW, what a beginning. I surrender.