I have come to the realization that my guidance is a day ahead. So, like the ones I received yesterday are for today, and the ones I pull for today are for tomorrow. They may even over lap.
I will also admit I am an emotional wreck today. So please send me a hug, cuz I could really use one. I received a sign from heaven, & I am grateful for the confirmation. I know I can lead a horse to water, but I can not make him drink until he is ready. I will probably keep trying though.
I must be on to something there as my ears are ringing and my thoughts are getting scrambled.
Yesterday was a comfortable day. I played with my son, we sang American Revolution for an hour and a half. He kicked my butt. I had coffee with my husband in the late afternoon, and we all went out to dinner. I am grateful to my husband and all he does for me. He certainly is very patient and understanding. Oh, we watched a couple of Supernatural episodes too. My friend Jenny let us borrow the first season. I really can relate to those guys. It hasn't been easy being different. Maybe that is why I am so emotional today, because it hit a nerve.
My search for "the knowledge" continues. I surrender & trust.
Guidance for today & tomorrow is: You will laugh Emotions (surprise), Pause (really again), Believe (doubting)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Knowledge is power?
My angels are working over time. It took me 10 minutes to get into this. Usually this means to redirect my thoughts, hopeful I have done so and can finish this without further ado.
I say they are working overtime as the have been sending me awareness's for two day's now. The last ones however where at 3:30 am and 4:14 am this morning. One of which I am to share with you now.
As I stated in the title Knowledge is Power. I am from the era of School House Rock, any of you who are too are sing the song along with me. That is not my point though.
It is actually the other way round "Power is in the Knowledge." If you noticed I added a word. I was told it is in how we search, obtain and use "the Knowledge" that one will gain Power, and not the kind of Power that makes you famous, rich, CEO of a 500 company or President, but the kind that hums through your veins and emanates from your pores in an awe inspiring way that individuals are drawn to you, because being in your presences makes them feel safe.
It isn't "the knowledge" that gains you the power it is "the knowledge" you receive from the choices you make on how to use that "knowledge". It reminds me of "The Ring" from "Lord of the Rings." Many killed for it, many where driven mad, a few who saw it deemed themselves unworthy of it. There was a small few who knew their own flaws will enough that, even though their intentions were noble in the end it would corrupt them. Only one could carry it this one had no wish to control it.
I hope this makes sence to you. I am still learning and seeking "the knowlegde" I am also learning which one I am. Do you know which one you are? How did your two hours of darkness go?
I surrender and trust.
My guidance for today is: Sweetness, Signs from above (wondering), & Look Deeper
I say they are working overtime as the have been sending me awareness's for two day's now. The last ones however where at 3:30 am and 4:14 am this morning. One of which I am to share with you now.
As I stated in the title Knowledge is Power. I am from the era of School House Rock, any of you who are too are sing the song along with me. That is not my point though.
It is actually the other way round "Power is in the Knowledge." If you noticed I added a word. I was told it is in how we search, obtain and use "the Knowledge" that one will gain Power, and not the kind of Power that makes you famous, rich, CEO of a 500 company or President, but the kind that hums through your veins and emanates from your pores in an awe inspiring way that individuals are drawn to you, because being in your presences makes them feel safe.
It isn't "the knowledge" that gains you the power it is "the knowledge" you receive from the choices you make on how to use that "knowledge". It reminds me of "The Ring" from "Lord of the Rings." Many killed for it, many where driven mad, a few who saw it deemed themselves unworthy of it. There was a small few who knew their own flaws will enough that, even though their intentions were noble in the end it would corrupt them. Only one could carry it this one had no wish to control it.
I hope this makes sence to you. I am still learning and seeking "the knowlegde" I am also learning which one I am. Do you know which one you are? How did your two hours of darkness go?
I surrender and trust.
My guidance for today is: Sweetness, Signs from above (wondering), & Look Deeper
Friday, January 15, 2010
Computer trouble
I am going to quickly write as my computer keeps kicking me off. I am back, I have now lost my train of thought as I am in hurray to write something. Okay, here it is. I am going to challenge you to a (not a duel) so relax, sometime between now and Tuesday, sit in the dark for two hours. Don't move, don't talk to anyone, don't ask for assistance from anyone. Set a timer, begin writing down what you hear, what you feel, what you see (or think you see), and thoughts you have. I would like to hear how it goes. And I'm gone.
Quickly,I am back; I Surrender and Trust.
Guidance today is: Mother (doubting), Wise Decision, & Triumphant.
Have a great weekend.
Quickly,I am back; I Surrender and Trust.
Guidance today is: Mother (doubting), Wise Decision, & Triumphant.
Have a great weekend.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Hello God, it's me again
Have you ever had a day that as your are climbing into bed you know you did alot of things, learned alot and still felt that you weren't enough nor could you remember what it was you did? I had that last night.
As I am trying to review my day, I recalled I had a great breakthrough but couldn't recall how it came about. I had this unsettling, nervous feeling, so I tried reading "Brida" once again it hit a cord, it told me what I really benefited from hearing. Can I recall it today? a few parts, the one that I remember the most is "We can have amazing things happen to us that confirm to us that we are on the right path and with in no time we will brush that experience off as our imaginations." This happens to me alot!! The other thing is to FORGIVE myself. (Did I receive that guidance this week also?) I am still caring a sad feeling, I would like to release this to you God and move forward. I am totally grateful for your continual patients and guidance.
I surrender and Trust
Me
Today's Guidance: Speak my truth (doubting), Faith, You are a Leader
As I am trying to review my day, I recalled I had a great breakthrough but couldn't recall how it came about. I had this unsettling, nervous feeling, so I tried reading "Brida" once again it hit a cord, it told me what I really benefited from hearing. Can I recall it today? a few parts, the one that I remember the most is "We can have amazing things happen to us that confirm to us that we are on the right path and with in no time we will brush that experience off as our imaginations." This happens to me alot!! The other thing is to FORGIVE myself. (Did I receive that guidance this week also?) I am still caring a sad feeling, I would like to release this to you God and move forward. I am totally grateful for your continual patients and guidance.
I surrender and Trust
Me
Today's Guidance: Speak my truth (doubting), Faith, You are a Leader
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Doubt, Fear, Breathe & Repeat
Good Lord, Did the angels kick my butt yesterday.
Do you realize once you open the door, even if it is a crack to doubt it will wiggle its skinny tush right in and make itself at home. Next thing you know it is giving out orders and creating all sorts of havoc. To bad there isn't a Musinex for that.
Here's how it took over, I stated that one of my dreams for the year is to "Treasure Gods gifts." Since that statement, I have been feeling disconnected to them, which in turn has brought "Doubt" a knocking at my door. I opened it a crack and BAM, next thing I know I have friends that won't answer my desperate call, business associate stating that they "doubt" what I do and clients informing me that they are "doubting" their process. Of course this sends me into an "Oh my, what have I done", panic mode. Ta da "FEAR" has now arrived, with thoughts like "I am an idiot, you should go back to bed, quit, it will be so much easier."
Side note: Remember, I asked about tires a couple of days ago? Lets say that I am my car, what would cause me to get a flat tire?
What guidance did I get yesterday, the day before and twice last week? PAUSE and SLEEP. Here is how the angels helped me get out of my doubt follow me here; I was headed to JAWIB meeting and I noticed the gas tank was on E, I thought "I ought to stop for gas, don't have time will get it later." After that meeting I stopped at my mom's passed two gas stations, didn't stop. Finished visiting with my mom and headed to another meeting. Really ought to stop for gas." Thought the car turning in front of me was turning before the light, went around them, only to discover they were in the turn lane. I had to go through the light, which had me turning into a gas station to turn around. Did I Stop? (Let me ask, Do you see the connection yet?) Yes, but only long enough for the other cars to pass so I could get out. While I am waiting for these cars it dawns on me; where are you? why are you not stopping? how much further do you think you can go before you are out of gas?" Automatic response; don't have time got to go. Pulled out and went to that meeting. All the way to the meeting berating myself, it was than it hit me (the angels step in)
#@%#, I am the car, I keep pushing myself, not taking the time to "refuel" myself, by not taking the time to do so, I am opening myself up to more ill effects. When we are tired or not operating at our best we tend to think irrational thoughts, opening us up to negative fuel. If we have to fuel ourselves with something it might as well be empty(Air), until we can stop and get the good stuff.
Guess what I stopped. Did I get a half tank (take 2 minutes to rejuvenate) or did I fill it up?
My angels weren't done; I kept a hold of my phone, while I was waiting for my daughter to come out from dance, when she came out I felt inspired to look at my messages. Imagine how surprised I was to see I had two voice messages. I checked the volume it was on vibrate. I listened to the messages (my two friends returning my desperate call). I deleted them, shut my phone and began backing out. My phone vibrates, I pull out and wait for the light, while at the light I see there is another voice message. When I get home, I listen to my messages, my voice mail says "You have no saved messages, press 1 to return to the main menu". To shorten this story, there is still an envelope on my phone saying I have a voice mail, however when I try to retrieve it, it doesn't exist. I believe this is my "Sign from Heaven".
The lesson here is take time for you, if you start feeling Doubt or Fear STOP, Breathe and look for the truth than begin again. It will take a few times to create this new habit. BE PATIENT!!!! Be Consistent, and committed to seeing it through.
I SURRENDER & TRUST
Today's guidance is: Vision, Play music, & Child (still doubting & my lesson continues)
Do you realize once you open the door, even if it is a crack to doubt it will wiggle its skinny tush right in and make itself at home. Next thing you know it is giving out orders and creating all sorts of havoc. To bad there isn't a Musinex for that.
Here's how it took over, I stated that one of my dreams for the year is to "Treasure Gods gifts." Since that statement, I have been feeling disconnected to them, which in turn has brought "Doubt" a knocking at my door. I opened it a crack and BAM, next thing I know I have friends that won't answer my desperate call, business associate stating that they "doubt" what I do and clients informing me that they are "doubting" their process. Of course this sends me into an "Oh my, what have I done", panic mode. Ta da "FEAR" has now arrived, with thoughts like "I am an idiot, you should go back to bed, quit, it will be so much easier."
Side note: Remember, I asked about tires a couple of days ago? Lets say that I am my car, what would cause me to get a flat tire?
What guidance did I get yesterday, the day before and twice last week? PAUSE and SLEEP. Here is how the angels helped me get out of my doubt follow me here; I was headed to JAWIB meeting and I noticed the gas tank was on E, I thought "I ought to stop for gas, don't have time will get it later." After that meeting I stopped at my mom's passed two gas stations, didn't stop. Finished visiting with my mom and headed to another meeting. Really ought to stop for gas." Thought the car turning in front of me was turning before the light, went around them, only to discover they were in the turn lane. I had to go through the light, which had me turning into a gas station to turn around. Did I Stop? (Let me ask, Do you see the connection yet?) Yes, but only long enough for the other cars to pass so I could get out. While I am waiting for these cars it dawns on me; where are you? why are you not stopping? how much further do you think you can go before you are out of gas?" Automatic response; don't have time got to go. Pulled out and went to that meeting. All the way to the meeting berating myself, it was than it hit me (the angels step in)
#@%#, I am the car, I keep pushing myself, not taking the time to "refuel" myself, by not taking the time to do so, I am opening myself up to more ill effects. When we are tired or not operating at our best we tend to think irrational thoughts, opening us up to negative fuel. If we have to fuel ourselves with something it might as well be empty(Air), until we can stop and get the good stuff.
Guess what I stopped. Did I get a half tank (take 2 minutes to rejuvenate) or did I fill it up?
My angels weren't done; I kept a hold of my phone, while I was waiting for my daughter to come out from dance, when she came out I felt inspired to look at my messages. Imagine how surprised I was to see I had two voice messages. I checked the volume it was on vibrate. I listened to the messages (my two friends returning my desperate call). I deleted them, shut my phone and began backing out. My phone vibrates, I pull out and wait for the light, while at the light I see there is another voice message. When I get home, I listen to my messages, my voice mail says "You have no saved messages, press 1 to return to the main menu". To shorten this story, there is still an envelope on my phone saying I have a voice mail, however when I try to retrieve it, it doesn't exist. I believe this is my "Sign from Heaven".
The lesson here is take time for you, if you start feeling Doubt or Fear STOP, Breathe and look for the truth than begin again. It will take a few times to create this new habit. BE PATIENT!!!! Be Consistent, and committed to seeing it through.
I SURRENDER & TRUST
Today's guidance is: Vision, Play music, & Child (still doubting & my lesson continues)
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Higher Education
Right off the bat, I want you to know that as soon as I figure out how to work the web cam on my computer, I will than be able to upload or download my vision board. Until then, Trust that I have it completed.
I am really enjoying "Brida" I learned last night there are four types of rings. We can choose which one we are to wear in this lifetime. However, you may not realize which one you have chosen until you are ready to depart this world. I have narrowed it down to two. When I know for sure I will let you know. The other thing I learned about was Wisdom, the definition in this book really caught my attention. I feel I would like to sit and digest it for a bit before I expand further on it. I feel all this falls under the Higher Education card I drew. I learned so much yesterday that I cann't recall all of it nor how it pertains to where I am going. I do know that when I wish to use it, it will be there.
I am so grateful for the experiences I had yesterday, they reminded me to take the time and listen to what matters (what was a part of my goal for the year?) Thank you angels for assisting me in recognizing this. Doubt has crept in more than once the last few days. I am getting better at letting go of it and replacing it with possibilities. I honestly didn't see the Miracle that occurred. Do I doubt that it occurred; no. It means that it wasn't a miracle I was to share.
One thing about New Year Dreams, as you are on the path to achieving them, you do tend to go through an array of emotional highs and lows. I wonder if this is what it is like to Manic? Do any of you know? Because, I seriously go through really highs and than at times I would like to sit down and cry. Do any of you experience this or is this just me?
I surrender!!!
Today's guidance: Sleep, Forgiveness (unsure), Signs from above (unsure)
I am really enjoying "Brida" I learned last night there are four types of rings. We can choose which one we are to wear in this lifetime. However, you may not realize which one you have chosen until you are ready to depart this world. I have narrowed it down to two. When I know for sure I will let you know. The other thing I learned about was Wisdom, the definition in this book really caught my attention. I feel I would like to sit and digest it for a bit before I expand further on it. I feel all this falls under the Higher Education card I drew. I learned so much yesterday that I cann't recall all of it nor how it pertains to where I am going. I do know that when I wish to use it, it will be there.
I am so grateful for the experiences I had yesterday, they reminded me to take the time and listen to what matters (what was a part of my goal for the year?) Thank you angels for assisting me in recognizing this. Doubt has crept in more than once the last few days. I am getting better at letting go of it and replacing it with possibilities. I honestly didn't see the Miracle that occurred. Do I doubt that it occurred; no. It means that it wasn't a miracle I was to share.
One thing about New Year Dreams, as you are on the path to achieving them, you do tend to go through an array of emotional highs and lows. I wonder if this is what it is like to Manic? Do any of you know? Because, I seriously go through really highs and than at times I would like to sit down and cry. Do any of you experience this or is this just me?
I surrender!!!
Today's guidance: Sleep, Forgiveness (unsure), Signs from above (unsure)
Monday, January 11, 2010
Ask and you shall receive
Last week I put a question out there to help m define Love and Faith. Well the angels stepped right up. I began reading a book yesterday called "Brida" and the first chapter is all about FAITH and the second chapter is all about Love. Not what I had expected to find in a book with that title. I really like the definitions in there. I recommend you read it.
Yes, I know I didn't write yesterday and it did haunt me. I kept making the excuse I am spending time with my family not the computer today. So, I would like to ask permission to write on weekends as I am inspired to? I did however get to start my book, finish my Vision board and hang out with my family. Yes, I also said I would post a picture of my vision board. I shall do that as soon as I figure out how to attach it. Boy it is only the first week and I feel as if I have broken my word several times. That isn't like me. I will do better in the future.
Oh, the other thing is "Tires" what do tires mean? anyone? I have figured it out and so has one of my friends who graciously shared it with me and therefor "Tires" showed up more than once afterwards. Thank you. You don't play fair, I ended up with a whole trailer full in front of me.
I surrender.
Today's Guidance is: Miracle ( I believe, whoa), Higher Education (doubting) and PAUSE (doubting, surprise). I am rebelling against this one again, I paused last week for two days. I can not Pause again. I repeat, I SURRENDER.
Yes, I know I didn't write yesterday and it did haunt me. I kept making the excuse I am spending time with my family not the computer today. So, I would like to ask permission to write on weekends as I am inspired to? I did however get to start my book, finish my Vision board and hang out with my family. Yes, I also said I would post a picture of my vision board. I shall do that as soon as I figure out how to attach it. Boy it is only the first week and I feel as if I have broken my word several times. That isn't like me. I will do better in the future.
Oh, the other thing is "Tires" what do tires mean? anyone? I have figured it out and so has one of my friends who graciously shared it with me and therefor "Tires" showed up more than once afterwards. Thank you. You don't play fair, I ended up with a whole trailer full in front of me.
I surrender.
Today's Guidance is: Miracle ( I believe, whoa), Higher Education (doubting) and PAUSE (doubting, surprise). I am rebelling against this one again, I paused last week for two days. I can not Pause again. I repeat, I SURRENDER.
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