Appointment

My guidance yesterday was to Pray. I was unsure of what I was praying about but I did so anyway. I figured it had to do with being in Retreat. For me this is a learning time. When I am guided to take a retreat it means that I am being bombarded by to many thoughts, idea's, emotions and outside influences that I am becoming to overwhelmed and not seeing the Vision (Which was another reminder yesterday). I enjoy sitting in prayer and meditation as it is the time my thoughts and emotions are quiet and as one. Yes, it has taken time to build that muscle, which is interesting as that was part of my guidance to continue building my talents(muscle), be patient with myself and to do a healing cleans as my vibration is moving. Be Brave is to help me move forward and embrace the changes that are happening. I am definitely moving out of my comfort zone. All in all the appointment went well. I am grateful for the support.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: Mother, Peaceful (unsure), Be Brave (still growing, unsure), & Emotions (unsure)

Hurt

Yesterday I had a friend inform me that another friend of ours has difficulty with what I do, that she fears I am practicing devil worshiping, or occult practices. She really likes me and is worried about my welfare. Honestly at first I was offended, than I became angry, now I am hurt. My guidance yesterday told me I am a leader, I am sure this is referring to this conversation. At the moment though I am not feeling like one. I am feeling attacked. I am tired of this constant defending of who I am. For the record I don't practice any occult or devil worshiping. I haven't sold my soul to anyone. I may for a killer pair of shoes or to become the chosen recipient of a large stock share in Hershey's Chocolates (JK). As it stands neither of these have shown up for me to offer my soul, so it is still intact. My friend Jaymi would be asking me right now "as the director of your movie what part does this play?" I am going to go with drama & conflict. Every movie has to have some sort of drama and conflict for the Heroin to raise above. Yes, I am not actually rising above it right now, I am doing a good deal of complaining and that is okay I am acknowledging the weakness and moving through it. My guidance yesterday also said Don't Compromise. Am I compromising who am I by throwing this little tantrum, I don't think so, because once I am done, I will still be me. Lastly, my guidance said Wise Decision, this comes from not calling that friend and chewing her out.

Okay, I have vented and feel better. I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today: Emotions (no really), Love (now I am crying) & Healing (yeah)

Connecting or Re-connecting

Interesting enough, when teachers give children homework do you think they know what affect it may have on the parents? My son has be given a homework assignment of spending 20 minutes a week for the next four weeks outside in nature. This has to be a place where he will not be disturbed. In that time he is to write down his thoughts and feelings. The goal is to help him "Connect" with himself. I am so excited about this. I think this is a great assignment for all of us to do for the next four weeks. We have made this a family project, my son isn't as excited about it as I, but I look forward to what we both learn.

I Surrender and Trust.

Guidance for Today: Commitment, Heaven is Watching over me, Be Brave (wondering)

Higher Education

Right off the bat, I want you to know that as soon as I figure out how to work the web cam on my computer, I will than be able to upload or download my vision board. Until then, Trust that I have it completed.

I am really enjoying "Brida" I learned last night there are four types of rings. We can choose which one we are to wear in this lifetime. However, you may not realize which one you have chosen until you are ready to depart this world. I have narrowed it down to two. When I know for sure I will let you know. The other thing I learned about was Wisdom, the definition in this book really caught my attention. I feel I would like to sit and digest it for a bit before I expand further on it. I feel all this falls under the Higher Education card I drew. I learned so much yesterday that I cann't recall all of it nor how it pertains to where I am going. I do know that when I wish to use it, it will be there.

I am so grateful for the experiences I had yesterday, they reminded me to take the time and listen to what matters (what was a part of my goal for the year?) Thank you angels for assisting me in recognizing this. Doubt has crept in more than once the last few days. I am getting better at letting go of it and replacing it with possibilities. I honestly didn't see the Miracle that occurred. Do I doubt that it occurred; no. It means that it wasn't a miracle I was to share.

One thing about New Year Dreams, as you are on the path to achieving them, you do tend to go through an array of emotional highs and lows. I wonder if this is what it is like to Manic? Do any of you know? Because, I seriously go through really highs and than at times I would like to sit down and cry. Do any of you experience this or is this just me?

I surrender!!!

Today's guidance: Sleep, Forgiveness (unsure), Signs from above (unsure)