Wise Decision

Every time I get this guidance I am unsure of what that means. Is a Wise Decision that I pulled the card or is there other decisions that I will make that will be the wise one. Cuz, truly if you think about all the decisions you make in a day, how will I know which one was the wise one. I have chosen the phone call with my friend Jaymi as my wise decision. She helped me move through the rest of the crap I had. She reminded me of the definition of Trust, "What if I Just Knew that everything is working out perfectly." I feel so much better. Yes, I truly was excited about being in PAUSE. I could feel things building up and knew the only way for it to move was in PAUSE. There is a little residual and I anticipate that it will be a few days before it is complete gone. Hmm know that I think about it, is my Wise Decision to listen to "TRUST". I say that every day I "Trust" but apparently I wasn't actually following through. I recognize that know. I will do better today.

I Surrender & Trust ( believe that all is working out perfectly)

Today's guidance: Healing, Speak my TRUTH, Heaven is watching (unsure)

Surrender

How many of us truly know what surrender means? I for one said it alot. It wasn't until my friend Kimberly challenged me to find out about surrender. We agreed to do it together. We gave ourselves 6 months to master it. Unfortunately, in the first 6 months we discovered we missed a step. In order to surrender you have to "Trust". I thought I was a trusting person, in fact at times my husband would tease me about being to trusting. It was in those 6 months of (what I thought was) "surrender" that I learned about what "Trust" is. I came up with the idea if I found the word "trust" it would remind me to do so. Every where I went I looked for it. I found "Truth", "Faith", "Hope", "Trust God". I couldn't ever find "Trust". It was while I was shopping with my daughter and she said to me "Mom, why can you not find Trust?" I stopped dead in my tracks. This brought tears to my eyes (still does),

"Because, I am looking for it" was my reply. This of course truly confused her. A very length conversation followed which I will not go into it at this time. Needless to say I stopped looking for it and I found it. I know what "Trust" means for me. T-totally, R-relying, U- utterly, on S-spiritual, T- timing. Knowing this has helped me learn how to "Surrender"(that story I will save for another day.) At the end of everyday I ask myself. How did I experience "Trust" today?

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: Wise Decision, Animals, Signs from Above (unsure)

Marriage

"We are gavveered here to day to talk about Marwiage". Sorry every time I hear that word I think of the Priest in Princess Bride. I am back now. Having performed several marriage ceremonies, one of them being this past week, I am reflecting on my own. I have a wonderful marriage, we have been married 20 years this year and together 22. It is hard to believe that we have been together that long. It still feels like yesterday. Do we have our ups and downs, absolutely. It has been brought to my attention though that there is more than one type of marriage. I ask that you look up what "Marriage" in the dictionarymeans, you may be surprised at what you find. Marriages today don't seem to last very long, I know people that change spouses to match what their current interests are. Even while they are still married they are looking for their next mate. I will not go into how wrong I think that is, because that is my opinion and that isn't my focus today. What I am asking is for you to look at all the relationships that you are currently in friends, family, neighbors, co-workers, ex's etc. Out of all those relationships can you name one person that knows the real you? Better yet do you know the real you? How can you know for sure? I have to wonder if the friends I have that are changing their spouses to match their current interests, if what they are really looking for is really themselves?

It was an amazing weekend, I am grateful for all the experiences I had and the growth I am making.I am grateful to have the man in my life that sees me as I a really am; bumps, cuts, buises and all.

Guidance for Today is: Marriage (surprise), Believe, Don't Compromise (unsure)

I Surrender & Trust

Learning experience

I have had quite the day. Yesterday, was a great day I spent time with my sister, worked with a client and took my daughter to dance. The day changed after that. While my daughter was at dance I took the car in for an oil change and walla, I drove away made it down the street before it died. I still have know idea what is wrong with it, but I have Faith that it will be fixed and all will be well. My analogy of this however is; apparently I was pushing to hard again and thus the reason for "Pause". I was unsure about this, well I guess I don't get to decided now do I. The Miracle for me was the fact that I was able to pull the car in to a church parking lot. Had I made a different decision, on where I was headed, I would have ended up on the side of the road. So, I know I am blessed and being watched over. As for Move, I put all my frustrations into dance class last night.

My day began with when I came home from taking me daughter to school, the garage door wouldn't open. In short I am going through a Learning Experience of FAITH.

Guidance for Today: Learning Experience (I knew it), Higher education, Practice Makes Perfect & Confidence (this one jumped out and I am unsure)

I Surrender and Trust!

Looking Deeper

My looking deeper yesterday consisted of me studying Harmonics and than mediating on it. It was amazing. I think harmonics are a great way to bring your body and soul back together. The Reward for this was the knowledge. I can not wait to put what I have learned to use. I struggled with Peaceful. Several times yesterday I had the sudden urge to strangle a child. I refrained, this didn't help with the urge though. In the end Peacefulness did arrive when all went to bed YEAH. I am excited to continue with learning.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today: Move, Miracle(unsure), Pause (crap again, unsure)

Excitement

I have this huge bubbly feeling in my stomach, I am anticipating greatness, I am unsure what that is, but know I will enjoy it. Excitement, is one of the highest vibrations there is. I love it.

Today's guidance is: Activist, Mother, & Healing (unsure)

With those new awareness's I received over the weekend I have realized I am becoming more and more the Activist, who knew? I am currently fighting a "cold" which is why I am healing. As for Mother, I will leave that to learn about. Yesterday's guidance was, Wise decision, Confidence & Believe. My definition of Believe is: By Eliminating Lies I am Empowered, Validated, & Energized. This was a reminder to look for "Truth", in doing so, I am building my Confidence. Thank you for the reminder.

I would like to share with you what happened to me last night at dance, I had on experience of my ears ringing, I know what this means and sometimes it isn't a good time for me. However, this was persistent. I stopped dancing for a minute, went with in and asked what I was being asked to do. One of the ladies dancing was having a rough day and I was asked to help heal her. Now here is where I always hesitate, this woman has no idea what I do and from conversations, I don't know that she would be comfortable in my suggesting to step outside for a minute. So, I opted to offer her healing while dancing. It was amazing, my ears stopped ringing and I could feel the anxiety being lifted off of her. She left shortly after that, so I am unsure of how I helped. I do know that my ears stopped ringing. My question is: By not asking her if I could offer her help, did I violate a boundary?

I surrender and trust!

Judgement & Stress Management

I am sure none of you have experienced judgement, whether it's you doing the judging or you are being judged. I had an awareness this weekend with stress management in regards to judgement. I had lunch with my friends from high school. I haven't really seen or spoken to most of them in awhile. When we first set it up I was excited, however as the day drew near I became more and more nervous, expressed to others that I didn't want to go. By the morning of I was hoping everyone else would cancel. I told my husband how nervous I was, and he discussed with me the reasons why I may be nervous. The biggest one was "I didn't want to be judged", in high school I felt I had always been judged. I am grown-up (okay not really) and I have an amazing life. In the weeks before this lunch I began creating in my mind how this lunch would go, how each friend would point out my flaws, mistakes and that I hadn't accomplished much since I last saw them. As I was speaking to my husband, I realized I was the one judging me, not them. Isn't it funny what we chose to create stress in our lives. I was allowing a scenario I mentally created to decide how I felt and how I would react. I took a moment to remind myself that I love myself flaws, mistakes and unaccomplished goals and all. The only benefit I gain from causing myself stress & judgment in this matter is insecurity. Which in truth is not me.

I went enjoyed myself and learned a lesson in monitoring my emotions, stress management & healthy eating (when I am stressed I don't eat.) Weird how they all showed up for a lunch.

I surrender & trust!

Guidance for today: You are a leader (sure), Higher Education, & Wise Decision

Don't Compromise

As you know words fascinate me. Take the word compromise, the end of that word is "Promise", ever time I see this word or hear it I am remind to keep the Promises I made to myself. How did this show up yesterday? I was asked to do something that wasn't in alignment with who I am. How did I know, because when I was asked I got this sicking feeling in my stomach and the minute I thought about answering "yes", I felt sicker. It wasn't anything big and I won't go into details, but I was reminded that it always starts small and before you know it you are breaking "promises" not only to yourself but those around you. Thank you angels for reminding me. As for being as a child, I played, and my vision is now getting bigger. Which tells me to pull back before I end up with the Pause button again ( and we know how much I love that one). I will be honest I pulled that card out yesterday too (it came out with the Don't Compromise), but put it back as I wasn't feeling it. Over the weekend I ask you to think of ways you can keep your Promise.

I Surrender & Trust.

Guidance for today: Yeah new ones; Stress Mangement, Healthy Eating and Emotions.