Generosity, Vision, & Activist

Food for thought; Is a habit formed first and than a routine, or do you create a routine that turns into a habit? I think it is the later. However, somethings seem to be a habit before you have ever create a routine such as biting your nails.

I have known for awhile that I am uncomfortable being in large groups, I will find a spot on the outer rim and mingle from this spot. Yesterday, I got caught in the middle. I had a small panic attack. Does this mean my panic attack was from my routine being broken or from a habit being disrupted?
Later on I went to dinner with friends and a similar thing happened, I arrived late and so, I was unable to choose my place at the table. Which was smack dab in the middle of the restaurant. Needless to say I had a hard time eating. No, I don't suffer from social anxiety, being an empath I feel more vulnerable being in the center of any room. My habit of being off to the side was created to help me feel safe. What habits or routines do you create to help you feel safe?

As for my angels, they were busy: My daughter pointed out that there was an office space available and that once I had it people will come in just to find out what I do (Vision). I am unsure what I was an Activist for (hence the doubt) and as for the Generosity, feels weird discussing it. Because if I talk about it will it be genuine? I will leave it at that.

I surrender and trust!

Today's guidance is: Heaven is watching over me, Freedom (doubting this), Practice makes perfect. All guardian angels. Thank you.

WWTA day 5

Hurray, I got most of my vision board done. I will post a picture of it tomorrow. I would like to add a few touches. I am so grateful for the awareness that I received yesterday.One of my friends stopped by and gave me a awake up kick in the butt. Instead of belittling and chastising myself for not working on my vision board the day before, I nurtured myself and find out the reason why. FEAR of what I may create this year to look like. That is when my friend stopped by and reminded me that I have the option to change it. Thank you friend. I took most of the afternoon doing it. I must admit it looks awesome. I loved the interactions I had yesterday and all of the things I became aware of. One of them is defining Faith and Love, which reappeared as a reminder and a mirror during a session with a client. What is your definition of Faith and Love? I looked up both in Websters dictionary, it doesn't truly fit mine, so I am asking you; maybe that will help me. Thank you for your help. I surrender.


Today's guidance: Activist (doubting that I could be one), Generosity, and Vision. Note time: 2:12 pm

WTA Day 4

Here is the deal. Every time I pull the Pause card I tend to get irritated. The Pause card means to stop and smell the roses. Just like you, I instantly think "I don't have time." The interesting thing with this card is when I pull it, I am forced to stop. Like yesterday, my day was scheduled out and I wasn't sure (hence the doubt) how I was going to Pause. Walla, my day was cleared! I was forced to Pause. Which in turn had my tap into my guidance system (Kimberly & Jaymi) and what I got was focus on my Vision for the year. Now, I have two days (yesterday and today) to create my Vision Board. I do have to mention that in my Pause, I studied for my final exam, finished a library book and played Karaoke with my kids. All in all not a bad day. Than how, come as of today I haven't put my board together? Distractions!!! Dag nab it. The fact that my clock now reads 11:41 lets me know that the angels are with my thoughts. Fine, I will finish this journal and get to work on it. I surrender.


Today's guidance: Nature (doubt this as it is cold outside), Sign from above (guardian angel), Love (which I am currently doubting.)

Healing with the Angels day 3

Okay honestly I have fallen victim to the New Dream doubt or irrational thoughts. I have been talking myself into writing about yesterday's experience all morning. I couldn't remember what guidance the angels were giving me yesterday. I am reflecting on how their guidance showed up. This is what I remember; having an awesome session with a client, and connecting with two new clients, having lunch with a wonderful networking group, speaking with an agent about office space, discarding emotional trash (thank you Kimberly), fighting with my ego, and having my butt whooped at dance class. Oh and Jenny giving me a bag of cake balls (which totally helps me maintain my VS model look) Thank you Jenny.

Today's guidance is: PAUSE (guardian angel, and I am doubting if I should do this), Play Music (St.Cecilia, doubting if music will help) and Confidence (St.Michael, the Archangel, I believe I do). I surrender.

Healing with the Angels day 2

Yesterday was a wonderful day, I spoke with my two bestest friends that reminded me of the things I am grateful for. I had a great laugh with my son, I enjoyed listening to my daughter's ramblings and helped my husband relax.

As for the guidance my angels gave me I was amazed at how wonderful I felt all day, having the knowledge that all was right in my world and I was exactly where I was meant to be. I surrendered many concerns to them and was reward. I feel the hardest part of surrender is truly letting go of the stirring wheel. My friend Kimberly and I discussed this. It has taken me a full year to be able to do that. My Sweetness assisted me in making a few new friends also. As for the miracle, I know you are wanting to hear that I walked on water or I cut myself and the wound healed instantly. Will I did neither. Except for that puddle out front of the post office, I guess you could count that as walking on water. My miracle was, I spoke with a good friend that I haven't been able to connect with for awhile, and I made two dinners with out burning either one. (Trust me this is a huge one ask my family). Lastly, I took the step and called on office space.

I am ready for today's guidance. PRAY (guardian angel), LOOK DEEPER (guardian angel), REWARD (guardian angel). All upside right. I surrender.

Invitation to join

Oh My Goodness,

The new year is already awesome. I have to let you know that my son brought a word to my attention which made me change my view on how I approached the New Year. He was telling me a joke, which than lead to this question; "Doesn't "re" mean again, because if it does how can anyone be "retarded"?" This question than had me thinking about other words that "re" is added to, and the first word was resolution. No wonder we never achieve our new years "resolutions". That word in itself causes us to do the same thing over again. Holy Crap batman, if we are doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results, wouldn't that classify us as going insane?

This is the reason I stated on facebook last week that I am creating New Dreams for this New Year. My dream is through my Surrender and Trust I gain Faith, Peace and Unity; Savor every moment with family, friends and clients; Treasure Gods gifts, receive the bounty that comes from them with gratitude, grace and ease; Integrate Love and Laughter in everything I say and do; lastly, look like a Victoria Secret model in a bikini. It doesn't seem like much, however I know what kind of work I will have to do to accomplish this.

I invite you to join me on this years journey of achieving my dream. I will document everyday for the next 365 days on how the angels are working with me to succeed. I will pull three cards daily from my Angel or fairy decks, state what their guidance is for the day and report how their guidance showed up from the previous day. I am very excited to do this. Are you ready? I am. Here we go. The cards I pulled today are BELIEVE (St. Hildegard of Bingen), SWEETNESS (guardian angel) & MIRACLE (Christ); all of them up right.
WOW, what a beginning. I surrender.

Fright or flight

I did fall cleansing this weekend along with hanging up the Halloween decorations. I placed a (window Sticky) skeleton sitting in a chair on the back door, and A giant spider (that drops) by the front door. I mentioned to my husband last night that I hoped the skeleton didn't scare the neighbors or anyone walking on the path.

Who knew, it would scare the crap out of me, several times today. Everytime I leave the room and come back it looks like there is someone standing at the back door looking in. After I regain my druthers, I laugh, and remind myself, it is only the Halloween decorations. It has been awhile since I have seen a full apparition, I usually see shadows, but sometimes after I do a cleansing, it stirs things up. So I put my big girl panties on and proceed with my day. To distract myself I turn on my MP3 player; I am listening to Pink's "So What" (which of course requires me to dance.) I head into my front room, pick-up my school workbook and paper, I come around the corner and see the blasted skeleton looking at my, I jump (literally); I than hear a crash, followed by a mechanical noise. I begin looking for the noise. It isn't the dishwasher, my lap top or the dryer. It stops, I wait, nothing. I began dancing again, as does the noise. (in my head I am asking myself "why are you looking, don't you always yell at the people in movies that going looking they are idiots?" I reasure myself that Pink is playing not some scary music so I am safe.) I head back to my front room just in time to see "A" giant spider crawling up the wall. I jump, causing the dang thing to drop. I stood there for a minute so the blood could drain back into my body.
I began asking myself, why do I hang this stuff up? Is it in spirit of the season, to scare the neighbors or myself. (I for one do not need any help in that department.) What ever the reason it sure does keep me on my toes.
I have now closed the blinds and shut off the spider. I am rather proud of the fact that I didn't run screaming down the hall or out of the house. I am also thankful that my "friends" have taught me to stop and see things for their truth. Needless to say, I have made a mental note not to do my fall cleansing the same time as putting up the "Halloween" decorations.

My question to you is what are you afraid of and why?