Divine Guidance

That always sounds so cool when I say it. I feel like I am so special and important that I am getting "Divine Guidance", until yesterday when I was informed to be patient and listen to the Divine Guidance, which ironically was "Surrender & Release". I fought it and informed them that I have been surrendering. Which in turn I was told that I am having judgement issues and to release those judgements as they are not benefiting me. Easier said then done. I know it would be beneficial to release them and I do, however thoughts bring them right back and I am than I am in that place again. Nasty. I will remind myself that I released them and that it isn't my place to judge. (Even, though I keep putting myself into that place.) Okay, I am releasing, you are my witnesses. I feel unsure, but will trust that it was for the interest of my higher purpose. Now I would like a nap. I forget how draining all this is.

I was also told many a time yesterday that I was focusing to much on the material word. Again, thank you for the information. I am changing my focus to studying Harmonics and protection.

I release any and all judgement. I also surrender & Trust.

Guidance for today is: Harmony (unsure), Surrender & Release (unsure, boy aren't they testy), Intention

Rainy Days and Mondays

No they don't always get me down. I spent most of the day with my lovely mom. As for taking care of my body I did make an appointment to see the eye doctor today. My left eye is blurry. Maybe that has to do with focusing also. My uncertainty continues. There are so many possibilities and I am excited for every one. Right now in this minute though I feel as if the rain is weighting me down. I receive my energy from the sun and the moon. My son always teases me about being solar powered. I look forward to the suns appearance today. I can hear a bird chirping out sound my window, how cool is that. I did have a strange epiphany yesterday, one day I may share it with you but for now I will keep it to myself and maybe it will help remove the cloud of uncertainty.

I surrender & trust

Guidance for today is: Surrender & Release ( really), Guardian Angel, Divine Guidance

Mothers

As you know I am one. I have an amazing one. I am continually awwed by my mother's abilities. She has 8 children all of which have turned out rather well. We all get along (yes we have are moments). She worked full time as a surgical nurse in a time when "Women didn't work". She taught us how to be strong and independent. At times I do believe she regretted teaching us this. She taught us how to love and be accepting of others and the importance of doing our best. I only have two children, is it easier with more I think in some ways yes and other ways no. I do commend any woman who has given birth or have adopted a child to love and cherish and are still doing so when the child is ranting and raving about how "Life isn't fair". I admire women who take other children in so that they too can know what "Love" is. I look up to those women who do not take crap from anyone, because they know they deserve better. I congratulate women who have defeated the odds when the odds keep telling her it is "impossible". In short I am glad that I am a woman and have so many role models. My hope is to one day be my, Mom.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

I surrender and trust

Guidance for today: uncertainty surrounds my day: New Love, Body Care & Focus

Cloud clearing

Interestingly enough, my fog does have to do with the exercise I am doing. I haven't been eating sugary things and my brain operates off of sugar. I did a test today, every time I eat or drink something sugary the fog clears. Hummmmm, what a dilemma. Do I keep Snickers on hand to feed the fog or do I eat fruit? Ewww can I do both? I promise I will alternate them. Speaking of which it is time to feed it, so that I don't go into a deep fog. There is much to do. I surrender & trust.

Today's Guidance is : Truth & Integrity, Signs (unsure), Healing

P.S. the battery in my cordless mouse has died, now I am forced to use the mouse attached to my laptop. My brain hasn't adjusted to the mouse not being there I keep reaching for it. Weird.

In congruent

My thoughts are still fragmented and in congruent. I feel as if I could benefit from a long winters nap. Usually when this happens I know what is causing it, such as a neg. or an energy vampire has attached itself, it takes me a day to get rid of it and a day to recover. This time though I don't sense either one of those. I think it has more to do with my body adjusting to all the exercise it is doing. I mean seeming how I have been doing the "insanity" workout for a couple of weeks my body is now rebelling. Does this mean I will stop? Nope, I will move through it, because I also know that I am causing this to test my commitment of completing what I started. I am hoping to snap out of it soon. As for the guidance yesterday the "retreat" was obviously beneficial, I did find Freedom in doing so. When you can not think straight it is rather difficult to have any expectations. The day goes on as you move through the motions. As surprising as this sounds, the day seems to go smoother when my thoughts are out of whack. All my inner parts can not argue as much do to the fact neither one is making any sense. I am rambling so I will move on.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for Today: Serenity (unsure), Divine Timing, & Self Acceptance

Retreat

My guidance for today is to Retreat (unsure), Study(know the reason for this) and Power (unsure). I am really tired today and could benefit from a Retreat, however I have a lot to accomplish between now and Saturday. My friend Jaymi is here visiting, but will be working mostly during the day. I am glad to have her here. I have many thoughts for today, except i received very little sleep last night do to muscles cramping and thinking through the process for teaching a class on Saturday. I brain fragmented. Hence again the retreat. I will retreat then as I do not want to be put into "Pause".

I Surrender & Trust.

Playfullness

Do you ever have one of those days where you are in a sarcastic, playful and teasing mood? It happens when you have playful conversations with complete strangers. You tease the clerk at the grocery store and they tease you back. You make an off handed comment to the assistant at Home Depot about "Shaking up the Paint", and he banters right back. I love those days. It reminds me of my childhood and the friendly bantering I did with my older brothers and my little sister. I watch and listen to my own children as they attempt do this, for example my daughter told my son "I was hoping for a little brother and end up with an older one, look how that turned out." I realize she is 8 and will get better with time. On the other hand when her brother attempts the same comment she falls apart, big tears and wants to know "how come he is so mean to her?". Again, another fond memory of my little sister and her response to our brothers teasing her. The old saying is "It is all fun and games until some one gets hurt", my question is were is the line of friendly bantering and bulling? My son says he is bullied a lot at school, however when I question him about said "bulling" what he describes to me are kids being kids and testing their own "bantering" skills. When I point out his bantering out and ask are you being a bully or playing? He gets all defensive. Would some one please explain to me the difference?

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance today is: Truth & Integrity (unsure), Freedom, Manifestation