Steady Progress

Every night when I go to bed I play over in my mind how the day went. In the past I would obsess about what I didn't get done. Than I would lay awake attempting to figure out how I was to get everything done the next day. I became more & more focused on what I "had" to do or "needed" to do. Due to events in my life I have been taught that it isn't about the "to do list" it is about the reason I created the "list". For example: Today is my sons birthday; my past behavior would have been obsessing about making it a special day, decorating his room, making his favorite breakfast, birthday shopping weeks in advance, making sure the presents are wrapped and ready to go. Invitations would be sent out for his party (family or friend). The house would be cleaned three or four times prior to family coming over, cake would be made, gift bags would be created (even for family members), and then the home would be decorated to reflect that is was some ones birthday. Of course there would be a theme assigned to this birthday. Did I mention that during all this I still have household duties, working full-time (meaning a 10 hr work day), volunteer time at school, and seeing to my husband and daughters needs also. Honestly, I am becoming tired reviewing my past behaviors. I realized I did all this for him to make up for not being there all the time. Also, to prove to everyone else I am a great mom (even though I felt like I was failing in so many ways.)

Now a days I go to sleep being thankful for all the things I was able to accomplish and forgive myself for those I didn't. I treasure the moments I have with my children. So today after I finish writing this my son and I are off to spend the day together. What ever that looks like. Family will come over for a party and only receive cupcakes (that his aunt is making). I think that is progress.

I ask you what is the reason for your "to do list"?

Guidance for Today is: Believe, Healthy Eating, Practice Makes Perfect once again uncertainty surrounds all of them.

I Surrender & Trust

Perception

I would like to ask for some assistance. I realize that we all have roles and I have no more than you, over the years I have been integrating all these roles into one identity. Meaning, I may have these roles however I well be who I am whether it is being Mom, Life Coaching, Angel Lady, Teacher, Sister, Wife, Dancer, Friend or Daughter.

It is interesting though how people from my past react to me now. Some it is of no surprise, others want to know what Occult I joined. For the longest time I have kept my friends in categories, those that know I am clairvoyant/empathic and those that don't. I have found it was best to keep them separated as it gave me the chance to Be. Recently, the two groups have meshed. Once again I am met with "Oh my God what have you done?" to " Sweet, can you tell me about my Grandmother? She died a couple of months ago, it would be nice to chat with her." For the most part I am no longer effected by their response. I am who I (no, I am not Popeye, some days it may be easier if I were) I am grateful that I have these gifts they have served me many times.

With all that said I would ask again for you assistance. If you have know some one for awhile or recently met them, how can one or two words change how you feel or react to them (perception)? Another example is, I worked with a lady for many years. Were we BBF's, no but I would call and ask for her assistance on things or email her with no problems until I found out she was a "Princess" a real live one. After that my own self worth came into play and I will be honest it didn't ever recover in regards to her. How come I allowed the title "Princess" change the way I interacted with her?

I would like to challenge you to think of the times that you changed how you interacted with some because of a word? Also, think of the times in which someone treated you different because of a word. Than ask yourself the reason you changed?

By the way do you see how the Angels guided me to talk about this today?

Guidance for today is: Steady Progress, Higher Education, Optimism all of which I am uncertain about.

I Surrender & Trust

Marriage

"We are gavveered here to day to talk about Marwiage". Sorry every time I hear that word I think of the Priest in Princess Bride. I am back now. Having performed several marriage ceremonies, one of them being this past week, I am reflecting on my own. I have a wonderful marriage, we have been married 20 years this year and together 22. It is hard to believe that we have been together that long. It still feels like yesterday. Do we have our ups and downs, absolutely. It has been brought to my attention though that there is more than one type of marriage. I ask that you look up what "Marriage" in the dictionarymeans, you may be surprised at what you find. Marriages today don't seem to last very long, I know people that change spouses to match what their current interests are. Even while they are still married they are looking for their next mate. I will not go into how wrong I think that is, because that is my opinion and that isn't my focus today. What I am asking is for you to look at all the relationships that you are currently in friends, family, neighbors, co-workers, ex's etc. Out of all those relationships can you name one person that knows the real you? Better yet do you know the real you? How can you know for sure? I have to wonder if the friends I have that are changing their spouses to match their current interests, if what they are really looking for is really themselves?

It was an amazing weekend, I am grateful for all the experiences I had and the growth I am making.I am grateful to have the man in my life that sees me as I a really am; bumps, cuts, buises and all.

Guidance for Today is: Marriage (surprise), Believe, Don't Compromise (unsure)

I Surrender & Trust

Education

I am on the road to higher education and for the last three to four days I have been talking about where I am going to school, what I am studying and the various course that are available. Para psychic Science for me has been an eye opener and a joy to learn. I originally was going to go into Metaphysics, I may still. However, with the things I am currently interested in, my profession and the learning more about how to better utilize my gifts Para psychic seemed the right choice. My husband is getting his Masters degree in Organizational Behavior, my friend Kimberley is getting her Masters in Spirituality and my sister is looking at getting her Masters in Physical Therapy. My friend Jaymi is working on getting her certificate in financial investing. I have nieces and nephews going to school for a wide variety of things. The struggle I had in going back to school was the accreditation part. Everyone wants to know if it is an accredited school, I am unsure what that means only that if it isn't I can not take the credit's from that school to an accredited one. Which to me seems stupid, if I went through the effort to get the credit why do I have to take the same class over again at your school. Can we not play nicely together? I feel for all those individuals that come from India, Africa or any other country that doesn't have a "school" that meets the US's criteria. My question is why do we put some much pressure on where we get our education from? Does it make a difference to you whether your doctor has a degree from Harvard or the Uof U? Does it matter to you if your accountant went to Yale or the Salt Lake Community College? Have you ever really looked at the creditials of either of them? Or is it more important to you that they know what they are doing and do it well?

I will get off my soap box and say everyone can achieve a degree, but how many of them actually receive the Education?

My guidance for today is Reward (unsure), Blessings of Abundance ( wondering about), Speak my Truth (just did).

I Surrender & Trust

What is real and what isn't

Tuesday night as I was driving home from dance I created a scene (in my head) that I am still chuckling about. It was 10:15 pm, I was on 12600 S almost to Bangater, those of who are familiar with the area it isn't very well lite. I had just approached the light to turn into Riverton hospital when I noticed a small woman caring a child( I am guessing here). I could barely see the top of this woman''s head as a blanket was thrown over the top of whom ever she was caring. The only evidence that what she was caring wasn't a box was it had legs protruding out from under the blanket. She seemed burdened by what she was caring, however she had a determined step. I was in the other lane, and was feeling rather guilty about not being able to pull over and help alleviate her burden. I assumed she was headed to the hospital and felt a little better as she was almost there. It was very dark, and I wondered if anyone else had seen her. The more I thought about stopping to help her, I could hear Bryan in my head saying "You are alone in the car, anything could happen so don't you dare think of stopping." Which than made me think of all the horrible things that could happen. But the two scenario's that keep me chuckling are as follows: I pull over, unroll the window ask if she would like some help and the blanket is thrown back to reveal a man that is holding a gun and he says for me to give him my money. The second one starts out the same however this time when the blanket is thrown back it is to reveal an alien/monster that comes through the window and tries to suck the life out of me. I have to say, not stopping was probably a better adventure than what may have happened if I did. When I got home I told Bryan all about it. He looked at me as if I had lost it, than he congratulated me on not stopping and then informed me I was not allowed to watch Supernatural any more. I still feel rather bad for not stopping, and hope that everything has turned out ok. Since there hasn't been any news reports about a crazy small man stealing hand bags or bodies find on the side of the road having their life sucked out of them, I feel it is safe to say my scenario's are wrong. Having reflected on this though I have to wonder how often do we create scenario's that aren't real? What do we get from creating them and are we even aware of how often we do this?

Today's guidance is: My Higher Education continues, Practice Makes Perfect, & Stress Management ( uncertain that I have stress, which means I am in denial and I do. Dag nabit!)

I Surrender & Trust

Hmmm

They are at it again. This is the second attempt at writing today. I hope it works. My guidance for today is Monitor my Emotions, Love and Higher Education. I have a difficult time staying focused and every time I attempt to do something it seems to go a rye. If this goes through I am grateful.

I surrender & trust.

Steady Progress

Some days I feel as if "Steady Progress" is at a snails pace. Then I remember that my super hero is Master Ugway, and that "slow & steady" win the race. Than I imagine myself pushing to hard to achieve, which in turn brings the "Pause" card to mind. So, I realized that "Steady Progress" is a friendly reminder to me that I am moving forward, not to push or I will end having to Pause. Jim-miny Cricket's that is a lot to learn on a Monday. I had a wonderful weekend, the Wedding Ceremony went off with out a hitch. I enjoyed it. I had fun at my friends birthday party and became aware that my little "Kill-deer" bird friend has returned. Sweeeeeeet. Not to mention that I got to spend time with my wonderful husband. Today has started out amazing as well. I love what I do and feel so blessed that I get to work with the most amazing individuals.

Guidance today is: Move (unsure), Forgiveness, Believe

I surrender & Trust