Time for wellness

It has been a week since I scratched my eye. I have been amazed at the process and how quickly things can alter. It didn't hurt, it was red. I kept blowing it off as I have allergies. The redness was a deep blood red though and by Friday others were getting worried about it. I on the other hand felt it was fine, it wasn't hurting and for the most part wasn't bothering me. It had started weeping, but isn't that a good thing?The weeping was clear, however by Saturday evening the redness had moved from the outer corner to the whole eye and was beginning to ache, along with weeping. Sunday morning it was glued shut and swollen. My husband said "that's it we are going to the Dr." We first went to Eye Masters but they weren't open. So, we headed over to the ER. I spent the morning there, they sent me to the Moran Eye center, and I spent my afternoon there. In short I have two corneal ulcers right. They are very small and with medication the hope is they will dissolve and not leave any scaring. If they do leave scaring it may effect my vision. I am going with they are healing great.

My point is this, it is the small things, that unless they are paid attention to, can cause the most damage. So take the time to acknowledge and care for the little things so you can be well.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: Signs from Above, Generosity (unsure), You Found it (unsure)

Steps

This morning as I was going through my morning routine I discovered that someone else had been using my computer. I have been out of town for the past week and it came as a surprise to see that a solitaire game that I had started before leaving was almost complete. How do I know it wasn't I that hadn't gone that far on my game. I wouldn't have made the moves that had been made that's how. It was during the undo process that I had an epiphany that I would like to share. Bare with me as I share this analogy.

We are all given a deck of cards (life), there are four suites in this deck (life paths), we are all given the choice on how to play this deck, solitaire, poker, gin rummy, etc (free will). The game we have chosen then gives us rules to follow to help us win the game (commandments, ethics, morals, rights etc). Now we chose how to play (using free will we create a life vision). I will continue with solitaire here as it is the game I play all the time, which in itself is interesting as I am forging my own path and not playing with others or allowing others to dictate my next move as you do in poker or gin. Okay back to the analogy;

With the deck in hand you lay out your cards in the order in which matches the rules for the game in which you have chosen to play. From there you begin the process of moving cards or collecting cards to pull them all together so that they are in alignment again (Vision, dream). You continue this process until you have either won the game or have come to a stand off (block). If you have made all the correct moves (choices, unity & trust) everything lines up, things go smoothly. If you do not make the correct choices you end up with cards stacked up on top of each other and you can not get to them and in order to get to them you have to go through a series of other moves to undo what you did to get to what you want. What most of us forget about is the undo button (Forgiveness), you can go back and undo what has been done. As you are reviewing or undoing the steps that you took that got you all blocked in, you must recognize the steps that helped and those that didn't (Truth & Wisdom). You begin again once you have undone what blocked you. (some individuals like to call this being reborn, I like to call it re-alignment). This is pretty much how we go through life. We take steps to move forward,unite or pause, forgive or move forward, gain truth & wisdom, move forward, unite. There are some other steps and I am sure you are learning them.

Now to surmise what I started, I know it wasn't my game because I have the wisdom not to have made those moves (choices) to block me in so bad.

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: Healing, Activist, Sweetness

Generosity

What are you generous with? Time, money? These are the first two things that pop into my mind when generosity comes up. What else is there to be generous with? Yesterday I learned to be generous with patience, love and kindness. Believe it or not these are things that most of us are very stingy about sharing. I meet with a new client that was having a very difficult time with forgiveness, it was during this process I learned about being generous with love. At first I felt empathy for her but as she was explaining her process and her belief of how difficult it is. I felt this expanding feeling of love. In the past I would have kept it to myself as she is a new client and didn't want to scare her. Over time though I have learned that when I get feelings like this they are not mine to keep. I looked her straight in the eyes and told her how loved she ways. It was amazing to feel it pouring out of me into her. She had many questions after that and I am grateful that I didn't hold it back. Thank you for the guidance and experience. My signs from heaven are birds. I have three black birds that like to bomb me every time I go outside. I look at it as a friendly greeting. Unnerving at times, but a nice greeting none the less. There where many other signs yesterday too, I do not recall all of them, but I do know that I was watched over.

Tonight is the night I spend with my sisters and nieces. I look forward to it and release any judgement or expectation I may be holding at this time.

I surrender & trust

Guidance for today is: Pray, Look Deeper, Animals

Summer Solstice

Summer Solstice is one of my favorite times. School gets out and everyone beings to come a live. Summer time is the time when everyone allows themselves to have some fun, whether it is summer vacation or having friends over for a BBQ. The summer solstice starts that for me. I give a fairy offering every year to encourage that I have a good and bountiful garden. I am continually surprised at what shows up in my garden. Summer is endless possibilities and blossoming. I am excited to see what shows up this year.

I surrender & trust

Guidance for me today is: Signs from above, Marriage (unsure), Generosity (unsure)

Things that don't work

Do you ever have one thing that refuses to work or run? Usually for me it is electronics's. I am the one at the electronic drinking fountains and sinks getting someone else to step in front of them so they will turn on. However there is one thing in my life that is a constant, the blasted pumps on lotion, soap, creams etc. If someone else opens them they will work fine. I would really like to know how come they won't work for me. Do I push to hard (don't go there), do I push not hard enough? This has boggled my mind for years. Yes, it is fresh in my mind as the damn shampoo pump wouldn't work this morning, if that wasn't enough neither would the soap or facial wash pumps. I may out shear frustration go back to soap on a rope. All of this has made me think of things through out my day that haven't worked. I was surprised to see there was a long list. It is a darn good think I am an optimist or that list would have set me into a tail spin. I am choosing to voice it and move on. There, I feel better. Thank you!

I Surrender & Trust

Guidance for today is: You are a Leader (unsure), Found It (obviously not the right touch for pumps), Reward (a pump that works, I am hoping)

Play

Do you ever get tired of being the responsible one? Last night a friend was telling me how she was not excited abouting going to Lagoon with a bunch of teenagers. She was dreading all the chaos. I was so excited for her, yet she went on complaining about how obnoxious that many teenagers are. It was than I heard the real reason she didn't want to go. She didn't want to be the responsible one. She wants to go have fun, but doesn't feel she can. It wasn't until I said I would love to go and play with them. How fun would it be to spend the day as a teenager? I asked her if she felt someone had to be responsible could she choose one of the teenagers and designate them as the responsible one. She actual became excited about going.

I know that when I pull the Child guidance card I have to step back and play. So, I am playing today. I encourage you to do the same.

I surrender & trust

Today's guidance is: Higher Education, Wise Decision (unsure), Blessings of Abundance (unsure)

Moments of growth

Yesterday I had one of those moments when it felt like an after school special or a movie like "Sandlot" or "Stand by Me". I was a supportive actress in this film as I was dropping my son and his cousin off to go fishing for the day. As they collected their things out of the car I begin hearing the narrator saying, "It was the summer of my 13th year, I spent the summer fishing. My friends and I started out the summer as friends but by the end of the summer we were brothers. I learned more about life that summer............." I shook my head and attempted not to cry as I realized "Oh my hell, he is growing up." It is in those moments I begin questioning if I have taught him all the things he will benefit from as he grows. My only consolation is that he has a dad that will fill in the blanks. After this reflection, I begin reminiscing about my teenage summers and the many adventures I went on. My heart sored with joy and all the possibilities I had than. I looked at what I wanted to be when I grew up and how things have changed. I asked myself, have I achieved those possibilities, am I someone my mother can be proud of, do I contribute to society in a positive way, am I someone I would want as a friend? At the end of all these questions I learned that I am happy with who I am, where I am and where I am going. I am still carrying that feeling of joy. Thanks to my son and his "Summer of Fishing" I grew. This all took place with in a five minute time period.

It is amazing what one can learn in the "moments" of life.

I Surrender & Trust

Today's guidance is: Child (unsure), Steady Progress (unsure), Love (unsure)